Podcast POST- Death by Asphyxiation

The Spiritual Implications of Racial battle fatigue are as follows:

YOU TIRED!!!

Racially Battle Fatigue is a scientifically researched and proven theory about how prejudice, micro-aggressions and racism slowly chips away at one's self confidence and identity as a valued member of a society.  Systematic racism is a spiritual attack that will not be properly addressed until the people of God return to camp to receive a spiritual healing and renewing.

I wanted to share with your the work that I am doing as a follower of Christ.  I don't want to say that I am necessarily a member of the Black Lives Matter Movement, but I do believe that my content support's it's message.  I am a Christian Blogger and I speak and write form a Christian perspective.  I believe that the Lord has given me great insight on what is going on in this world and is showing me how to navigate through confusion.  The enemy is coming in like a flood!!  One of  his tactics is to over stimulate, over crowd, and cause confusion.  

DO NOT BE CONFUSED IN THIS TIME!!

We don't have time to be confused!!  It is time to get focused!! It is time to return to the Lord so that we can get the instructions on what to do next.  This is why I do the podcast. . . All the Things you need to know about the end of the world!!  The enemy is the author of confusion and I think a lot of people are confused about what it means to return to the Lord. . . 

Returning to the Lord simply means rebuilding your relationship with God through Jesus Christ.

Check out this episode of  "All The Things"

DEATH BY ASPHYXIATION

https://anchor.fm/allthethings-endoftheworld/episodes/Death-by-Asphyxiation-S2-E12-efl949

Keep moving forward

What do you do when you don't know what to do?

Stand

Keep standing.

Be unmovable, steadfast, and always pursuing the work of the Lord.

Reflection of George Floyd Murder - I Live America?

A lot of things going on in the world right now. There are a lot of opinions in Black America about what should be done about our justice system. Another unnecessary death of an African American male by a police officer has caused major disruption in this country. I don't think rioting is the answer. We have to be wiser, more strategic; we have to learn this game to change this game. I have many feelings surrounding the death of George Floyd, who's death was just confirmed to be a homicide. The autopsy pronounced it as:

"asphyxiation from sustained pressure"

when his neck and back were compressed by Minneapolis police officer causing his suffocation.


It seems like this is what has been happening in our community since we have been transported to this country. We are slowly being suffocated by the pressure of societal norms. We think we are living but we don't see that our lifestyles are killing us. Why does America not function as the land of the free for a people who helped build it? Why do we still have a slavery mindset in the land of the free?


I write to figure it out:



I’m cold here

Not loved by the loving stripes and tattered souls that claim the claim of victory old

I crave the love that freedom molds but lie awake from the lies it’s told

I in fear, I run, I hide, fighting with the fear inside

I rise, I fall, pushed down to get dead, it is so hard to lift my head

Crying voices, expectancy choices, yell out, stay down, stay down

Then crack crack boom, and the scream it shakes, visions terrorize me, my soul it breaks

No one can see how my body aches, the scars are hidden inside of me

I’m down, I’m down, how far should I go? I’m already broken, I’m already sold

I’m so cold here, for my former shelter, no replica, I lost my home long ago, now I live America




I’m cold here

I try to live the best I can, making a living to live again

I’m the self that tells self you can, keep going, keep striving you’ll make it my friend

But something has happened and something has changed,

The peace that I felt has become rearranged,

I saw him, I let him, I left him alone, not sharing the fight that he goes through alone

I cry for my sons with a deep pitiful moan, a weeping concern, a crunching soul groan

No one can see how blindly I roam, searching, not finding the comforts of home

I’m trapped in a hope that was lost in delusion, a toil of youth, a seed of confusion.

I used to live in a world full of hope, humming freedom of fa la la,

but now I cry out, oh how do I live,oh how do I live America




I’m so cold here

My heart filled with unsettled doubt of why I am here and what’s it about

My wilderness is common and comfortable and calm

I sit in complacency and a lackadaisical fortitude,

I flow with the sea, no cares and no attitude

No healing for myself, and nowhere to go

No shelter, no home and always so cold

This lands dark hold, hides my inheritance my soul does crave

But to this country of Liberty, I’m shackled to fear, and oh yes I do behave

History lost, and stolen and buried, I don’t know who I am, I don’t know who I was



And this is the dream you want me to live, when I live America’s




I'm cold here

I'm dying

I can't breathe

America

My black year: Maggie Anderson at TEDxGrandRapids

3 day in 1 day

I have been waiting to see how I would adapt to my new 3 day in one day schedule as suggested by Ed Mylett.  I usually used a block schedule method to plan out my day and it works well for me.  The idea of 3 days in one day is the concept that each block consist of a routine.   In this routine you have goals for each block.  These goals should be major movement goals that will help you move forward with your life.

For example:

Block 1 consist of my morning walk, prayer time, tea,  some type of organizing or cleaning in my house, and ends with me writing this blog.

Block 2

I take a movement break, I continue with my writing, tea break/mind break, school work, and then I plan out what I have to do in this block the next day.

Block 3

I take another movement break in order to transition into my last day.  If I have to, I cook diner.  After diner is cleaning then relax time, and then bedtime routine.

That is a brief description but in my head a routine is forming that goes something like this:

6-11 am
Self Care Time

11-11:30 -Transition

11:30-4ish 
Work Time

4-4:30 Transition

4:30-8:30 pm
Family Time

9-10- Transition to bedtime with additional self care

And I don't feel guilty about it because I realize that me taking care of my head space helps me do my work more efficiently and it helps me have enough energy to invest in my family.  Not everyday goes perfectly as planned and that is Okay.  Routines are subject to life happenings.  It is always wise to be wise about being flexible.  I always leave that transitioning time in my schedule because it does take time to get your mind right about the next thing I have to do.

My 3 day in one day focuses on God, Work, and Family.  These are the things that I prioritize.  These are the things that keep me in harmony.  These are what I choose to invest in.

This might work for you during this time of quarantine.  You might find another way that works well for you.  Just remember, what ever you put into life is what you will get out of it!

Remember to live life on purpose

Until Next Time
Tamorra

Let's Go

I have no idea what day it is on my challenge.  I am past the 45 day mark and I am writing everyday, just not on this blog.  I feel like I am running myself down and I want things to get easier.

BUT

I know that all things work together for the good, for those who love God, for those that are the called according to his purpose . . .

AND I KNOW

That the Lord will never leave me nor forsake me

AND I KNOW

That my work is not in vain

AND I KNOW

That the Lord is with me where ever I go.

I will be strong and courageous

BECAUSE I KNOW

That I am the head and not the tail
I am above and not beneath
I am blessed and highly favored
I am blessed when I go in and when I come out
I am blessed
My joy is in the Lord
My strength comes from the Lord
I am healed
I am a daughter of the most high and so

I BELIEVE IN THE PROMISE OF EVERLASTING LIFE!!!

I REJOICE IN MY SUFFERING!!!

because I will endure through the strengthening of my character

I have faith that he chose me for a reason
I am his workmanship
and he will continue the work in me until his coming

I will not throw away my confidence
I am more than a conqueror
nothing shall separate me from the love of God!!

Try me devil and I will go harder
Try me and I will speak Louder
The Lord is with me where ever I go


LETS GO!!!

life coach- edited out of Strange and Peculiar

No, I don’t want to be a life coach. I am just little me, trying to learn about my Great God. I much prefer to be called a perspective coach. I chose to write about what I see from a Christian worldview and try to put meaning to life based on the truth of God’s word. I really want everyone to see that God is in control of this whole thing. I want people to see that there is purpose to process.


The Lord says to me, just like he is speaking to you, turn from the ways of the world, change your mind and I will restore you. Change your mind so that honest and true words come out of your mouth and I will make you my spokesman. I am not trying to hurt people, although I know that they are hurting. I am not trying to convert people, although I know Jesus is calling you. He has chosen to save the world and I serve a God who does not fail. He will save you even when you are offended by it.


God loved this world so much that he sacrificed his only son to help us change our minds. The power of the Holy Spirit will destroy the traps that the enemy has placed on your mind and Israel will be restored. But who is Israel and who is Judah? There was a time in the past where history was written for truth and a time after where history was written for alternate agendas. This is a strange thing that has happened in the earth. The questions that used to be asked about life have dwindled down to meaningless activity. We don’t have time for this type of living anymore. It is time to start living.


- ORIGINAL EXCERPT FROM STRANGE AND PECULIAR

day 46- Wisdom

This is what I know about Wisdom . . .

It is good to love it and I love it.  But I think I grasped a different definition of Wisdom this morning. . .

I have been reading proverbs which is basically the go to book for wisdom.  Isn't it interesting that there isn't just one definition of what wisdom is, but it is talked about, contrasted with foolishness, and expounded upon with stories and examples:

Th fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom . . .

In my youth I always thought this to mean that we need to give reverence and respect to God or else. But As I grew to know the Lord a little better, I knew it to mean that the respect of the word of God (The law of God) is the beginning of Wisdom.  When we are talking about the Law, we are talking about the natural order of things.  The law of cause and effect, the law gravity, the law of energy, the law of expectancy, the law of love, the law of forgiveness, the law of giving, the law of sowing and reaping; so on and so forth.  People may think that they have discovered these things, but it is God who allows us to discover these things which leads us to the greatest and ultimate law of all:  God made everything and everything in this earth is his and the fullness thereof; which means that God is in total control.  If God is indeed in total control, then he created the law to work according to his purpose, so, all things work together according to his purpose.  Hence, there are just somethings that we don't have to figure out.

However, there are things that are pertaining to our survival that we should figure out.  The search for these answers are wisdom.  Now here is something that I learned this morning:

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom
The fear of the Lord is instruction of Wisdom; and before honor is humility
Therefore, the instruction of wisdom is the beginning of Wisdom
Wisdom is the willingness to see that we are wrong about so many things in this life.  We think we figure things out but without the knowledge of the word of God, we do not know anything . . .
Therefore, the ways of a man is always right in his own eyes, but the Lord weigheth the spirits, which brings us full circle to the understanding that God is in control of everything (see Proverbs 15:31-33 and 16:2)

What does this mean exactly?

This means true Wisdom is the ability to hear the correction of the Holy Spirit, to turn from the wrong ways of thinking to the righteous way of thinking.  How can we find this way?  There is only one way, God's way; through the shed blood of his son Jesus Christ!  It all makes sensee to me.  Wisdom is knowing Jesus.  Wisdom is accepting the gift of salvation through Jesus.  Wisdom is believing.  Wisdom is following the direction of the Lord (The Law, The word).  Wisdom, my friends, is listening to and believing in the instruction from the Holy Spirit.

So, how can we apply this to our lives?  We have to humble ourselves to the point of understanding that we do not know everything, but we are going to trust in God's way.  Humility is a necessary ingredient to salvation.  Sometimes we have to be broken in order to ask for the help we need from the son.  It only takes a simple prayer:

Lord I am weak
and I don't know as much as I think I know
Help me find the way
Help me to accept your gift of salvation
I am willing to believe that Jesus Christ died for my wrong thinking
Even if it doesn't make sense  to me right now
I believe
Help my unbelief

Humility-Belief-Wisdom-Honor

Day 45 - Risk

Day 45

These are my reflections from Thursday but I'm writing them today:

Skipped a day again!!  I really need to get better at this!! LOL . . . I'm not really fretting though, I had a good day yesterday.  I had a day of working in the yard, which was relaxing for me.  I find that when things become a little too overwhelming for me the best thing for me to do is something quiet and away from other people.  It relaxes me to work in the yard.  Strangely enough, my hubby was planting an herb garden on the other side of the house and I helped him out a little.  The strange thing was that he was the person I was trying to get away from.  He was really trying my patience the last few days and I wanted to run away.  This happens sometimes with the people you love.  Especially when you are stuck at home with them for quarantine! But sometimes when we feel like running away into our quiet spaces of protection, we shouldn't stay in there for very long.  We take the time to rest then we take action to face our fears. Anyway, I am better now.  Doing some writing today.

 I submitted a few queries to some agents the other day.  This was a big step for me since my mind has to grasp the understanding that good things can happen for me outside of the reality of what I believe is normal.  You know, I understood from my upbringing that going to school and getting a degree was normal.  I had the understanding that going into education and becoming a teacher was a pretty normal way of making a living.  The writing though, no. Having a successful writing career is for special people, talented people.  I was never told that I was talented at writing and so I have no reason to believe it.  But God.   God is telling me something so different and so I am learning to trust him.  I am learning to believe different things about my life story.  I am learning to take risks.

It is funny because when I listened to Rachel Hollis speak on resilience this week, I didn't expect for her to talk about attempting to write a book in two months.  But she said it was something that was on her heart to do.  It was something that she felt she had to do even with so many other things that she was attempting to handle in this season.  So that inspired me to put myself out there beyond the self-publishing market.  I am going to "Believe Bigger" like Marshawn taught me and take a risk at my big dreams.  I am going to leave my comfort zone and ask an agent for help in getting my book published!!!

Guess what else happened.  I just received my Magnolia Journal Magazine and this season's theme is RISK!!  I have been reading and I am pretty sure the Lord is speaking to me to take the risk. 

"The definition of risk is a situation that exposes you to danger."

"Without Risk, it can become easy to settle into consistency, security, and stability. Without Risk, I wonder if we could ever experience growth. . ."

-Magnolia Journal Summer 2020

Here we go

Day 44- Resilience

This week on the next 90 day challenge the Hollis Co. is talking about resilience.  I am all about it.  Someone tell me how to be resilient because I am tired.  I am warn down.  I am ready to take a nap.  Rachelle says resilience is fighting through, picking yourself up and doing the hard things regardless of how hard they are.  Today, I am trying to push myself.  Today, I am trying to be resilient but I really want to take a nap . . .

But here I am writing and rambling about nothing much.  I write all of the time just to get things out of my head. I was writing all these little weird notes and reflections to myself because I wanted to put them into my new book: Strange and Peculiar.  I'm working on it.  I have it on my to do list to send out my query letters.  I just came from Walmart  buying the paper.  I have a list of agents to send the letters to.  I don't know.  I guess that I am scared.  I am scared that I won't get the answer that I want. I'm going to try anyway because I know that I serve a God that wants the best for me in this land of opportunity.  But more than that I serve a God who wants the world to know that God loves them.  God has sent a loving gift that will save us from the evil governing of this world.

As I write, I am filled with the awesome understanding that I am privileged.  Everyone doesn't have this opportunity to be home, in a house with electricity, plumbing, food, a computer and TV.  I want to be in the position where my heart cares more for people in need then for my own well being.  The Lord is working on me.  I will try to be better at not complaining about how tired I am.  Instead, I will be thankful that I have a bed to lay down in.  Thank you Lord for placing me here.  Help me help others who are praying for a better life.  This is why I write.  This is why I serve the Lord.  This is why I will be resilient.

Day 42 and 43- Take it by stride

I did not post Yesterday!!  Why?  Because first of all I was out of my routine . . . second it was Mother's Day and my day got full fast.

So, Hope everyone had a Happy Mother's Day!!  I did . . . it was so relaxing and enjoyable because I didn't really plan the day out, but I did what was on my heart to do.  I cleared out some paper work, I worked on my garden, and I visited my mother in law.  My girls told me to relax, so they cleaned the kitchen.  They did a good job.  I do wish I had time to read my book, but I traded that for some chat with old friends and quality time with my hubby.  I had a good day!

I didn't want to lie to myself and make two separate post for yesterday and today.  I am learning how to be true to myself so that I can look at things the way they really are and not the way I wish them to be.  It is only when we observe our flaws, our failures, and our misses that we can evaluate how we can be better.  I am who I am and I like me.

The following are somethings that I learned about myself this past week . . .

I take things in stride
I am a hard worker
I commit to things
I also over commit to things
I enjoy time with my family
I clean out to let more blessings in
I like spending time with family
I am a little stingy with money
I don't always complete things when I'm tired
I have a lot of things on my mind
My intentions are good, but not always realized
I get angry and frustrated when I can't do what I want to do
I can be bossy sometimes


The following is what I'm going to work on:

I am going to work on planning my schedule to complete the task that I need to do.
I will no longer be a procrastinator.
I will learn how to tell people no because my plans for my life are important!

How will I do this?

I am working on creating a string of habits that will help me reach my goals and help me not to procrastinate on tasks.  I will do this through routines.  My first routine will be my morning and my second will be my night.  I know now that what ever I do at night is going to effect my morning.

Now it sounds like I'm rambling but I have to take this thing in stride.  You do to.  Day by day.  This is how we get better. Take inventory of your life and figure out what is keeping you stuck.  Some areas might be better than others but there is always room to improve.

Day 41- Committed

Happy Saturday!!

I am resting and trying to get myself to understand my mind position.  I mean, I want to relay the idea to myself that mindset matters on so many levels. I want to know why I'm stuck.  I have been making major mind shifts over the years but I recently feel stuck in one particular area: Finances.  I am sure that even though I don't see him, the Lord is working things out in my favor.

A recent thought keeps showing up in my day to day.  The thought is about commitment.  I understand that commitment is a key and this is one reason why I am doing this 90 day challenge.  I want to develop the mind that it takes to keep at something, to finish things to the end.  I know that I can do it with school, because I did it before.  This doctoral stuff though is different.  It is more about believing in myself, believing that I have what it takes to finish.  I want to believe in myself, but above that, I want to have complete and utter trust in the Lord. I am still in the process of learning how to do this with my whole heart.  So, the thought about commitment leads me to committing my life to the Lord again and again.  This is not to suggest that I became unsaved, but it is to say that the Lord teaches us bit by bit.  We are supposed to acknowledge the Lord for teaching us his ways.  We are supposed to keep learning and to keep growing.  We are learning to be all in.  We are learning to believe more fully everyday.  I am all in.  And if I am all in, then nothing else matters. . .

When you don't commit to a goal 100%  than other things seem important. . .

This is the thought that I am pondering.  If I made a commitment to serve the Lord, then why do other things seem important?  I am overwhelmed because I am putting other things before the Lord.  I  over commit myself because I did not take correct inventory of my time.  This has to change.  And since the Lord tells me to ask and I will receive, I ask him today:

Lord help me be committed to you and only you.  And let me trust in you enough to do everything for me that I can not do for myself.  The glory is to God that I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.  This is a good deal.  Thank you Lord.

I have a goal to spread the good news about the Kingdom, nothing else matters.

day 40 of the #next90days challenge- Obligated

So this has been a journey and I am happy to say that I made it to day 40!   Which, when I look back isn't really 40 days of writing  because I started on day 15! LOL.  No problem, I'm still in it.  I'm pushing through because I want to practice keeping the promises I have made to myself.  I realized yesterday that we don't have as much time as we think we have.  This means that we don't have as much time available in our lives to fulfill all of the obligations that we say with our mouths.  I have come to know what it really means to have free time.  Free time is time that is not promised to anyone or anything else.  I am a wife and a mother which means most of my free time is for my family.  Why? Because I made a vow to love my husband and when we had those kids I made a promise to take care of them.  This task should not go to anyone else, but mainly to me.  When we live in a society that makes us delegate our time to tasks that don't matter, this is where we fall from our purpose.  Our world is flawed.  But here we are trying our best to manage our lives while being too busy.

Usually Fridays for me is freedom Friday.  This means that I take recognition of the freedom that Jesus died for me to have.  Then I look around my situation and realize what is keeping me blocked from that freedom.  Then I tell myself to stop making promises that I can't keep.

For anyone who is tired and feel heavy from the burdens of life, Jesus is the only one that can lift those burdens.

Amen.

day 39- Trusting

Looking towards the day ahead with uncertainty of what is to come.  I think that I am supposed to rest in it.  I think the Lord is trying to teach me to be at rest.  I am gradually learning how to put my total trust in the Lord.  I am learning to let him do the work that he is supposed to do.

I am going to send this prayer into my day and into my future:

Lord help me trust in you
help me let you do the things you have to do
Please don't let me ever stand in your way
Correct my thoughts
correct my speech that hurries my decay

Lord let me hope in the promises of your rest
let me live this life
feeling calm, happy, and blessed

It is my task to let go and let God
I am learning to put my trust in you
The almighty and powerful God
Lord take it
do what ever you will
Fix the things in my Life
keep my heart perfect and still

Lord help me be on your side until your kingdom come
Help me serve your purpose
Let your will be done
order my steps and set my path
shield me from evil
shield me from wrath

All I need is to make it through
increase my faith
and I will always depend on you

day 38- CLOGGED

So many distractions today.  I am trying to get things done and I thought that I had my schedule figured out.  But the day had other plans and so I am reflecting on the events of the morning.  It is always good to reflect on what is going on around you because it gives you clues to what is going on in your spiritual life.

 Isn't it funny how when you think you have things figured out they all go to crap.  I am not able to work in my office because the back sink is clogged.  I tried to pour bleach down the drain to clean it out.  I tried to use liquid plumber.  I snaked the drain, I loosed the pipe to try to suck out the clog.  I even tried to plunge it.  It was not a project that I could handle on my own so I had to call a plumber.  They are working on it now.  Isn't it funny how when things get clogged up you have to call a professional to fix it?  It can get so pricey, but the benefit is that the problem gets fixed.

When they first came in they looked at the problem.  Then my hubby had to give an explanation of the problem.  Then the plumbers started asking questions:  "Are you having any other problems?  Where does this pipe lead?  Can we take a look in the crawl space?"

The crawl space access is in my office and I did not want to leave my office.  I have a lot of work to do and so the whole situation is very inconvenient.  I know that when the plumbers are ready to make their estimated charge it is going to cost me money, also my convenience.  However, if I want the work done correctly It would be better for me to pay the cost and avoid future problems.

This is how it is with our spiritual lives.  It is very simple really, when things get backed up or if we seemed to just be stuck in life, we have to call a professional.  It is not good enough to call any professional, but the only one who could really fix the problem, The Holy Spirit.  We can always call on the Holy Spirit but be sure it will be a process to assess the situation.  The Holy spirit will come in to your life, ask some questions, evaluate your heart, then get the necessary equipment to unclogged your pipes!  There is something going on with you that you can not fix by yourself!!  You need a professional.  The work that it takes to get the job done is going to be inconvenient for you, and it will cost you something, but it is absolutely necessary to get your life back in working order.

Here is the big clue:  You have to let go of something so that the Lord can give you something new.  In other words, the cost is the old dirty stinky stuff that is clogging up the pipes.  The new, is a drain treatment that will let your blessings flow.  Better yet, let go of your old way of life and The Lord will give you a new way of life, more beautiful then you could have ever imagined.

The Lord will always be my first and only call because I know he could fix anything.  My prayer is that I always have access to the number and that I could always get through on the line.  Better yet, I just ask the Lord to move in with me.  He has permanent residence in my heart so that he could fix all my problems as I continue to live this life.

Day 37- I wanted to be rich

When I started this journey I wanted to be rich.  I thought that being rich was the answer to my problems.  I thought that having money and being able to do what ever I wanted was going to make me happy.  So I imagined not worrying about paying a mortgage, or about paying for the kids to go college.  I imagined my bills being paid, all of them. I felt a sense of security and pride in the not having to worry about meeting my obligations.  My thoughts would float up and up on the dream of "If I had the money  . . ." 

I would live in abundance
I would go on retreats with my husband
I would travel the world with my family
I would help people
I would write books for a living
I would get a roof for my house
I would buy my parents a house
I would go on vacation
I would build an art school
I would help kids who were angry about their life
I would change the school system
I would put the money back into teacher's pensions
I would pay back all those people who helped me
I would pay all of my student loans
I would give to the church
I would start my own ministry
I would
I would
I would
because I had an abundance of money.

And I promised myself that I was going to find a way not to be stuck anymore.  I felt stuck because I used to love my job.  It was my dream job that I had worked very hard to get to.  I did the work, I went to school, I made the sacrifices, and I experienced the grind; but something had changed.  The system was broken and I saw it everyday.  I saw the rundown schools, I saw the broken kids, I saw the burnt out teachers trying to make a difference.  I saw the system that did not create an atmosphere for learning, but one that rejected those who didn't quite fit in.  I was stuck in a career that was not helping people.  I was stuck in a system that taught students how to stay stuck.

So yes, when I started this journey I wanted to be rich.  I read the books that were supposed to teach me how to be rich. "Think and Grow Rich," was one of the first ones.  "The Richest Man in Babylon" was another.  I read these books and a strange thing happened,  I received a Reduction in Force letter.  This was just a fancy term for LAID OFF.  Something strange happen after that, I didn't care.  It was like a great burden lifted from my shoulders and I was finally free to become RICH!!  I thought that If I could just write down my experiences about this lower-economic school system, then I would become an "International Best selling Author!!"  It didn't happen that way.  Instead, I lost my job.  I became broke.  I became broken.  I became lost in my purpose. . .

BUT, that was 5 years ago.

I am just taking this time to reflect on how far I have come in this journey.  Today, I know that I am on my way.  I am no longer broken because I put my trust in the Lord. I am now rich because I know that I have eternal life.  WOW, what a gift!

Day 36 -Next 90 days- essentials

Happy Monday!

I am excited to be here another day on the challenge of the Next 90 days.  So, the thing is with this challenge is about working on keeping the promises you make to yourself.  I am working on some major moves for my personal development.

FIRST- I am definitely working on writing everyday.  This means that I am going to write on this blog as a reflective practice to monitor my progress.  I am trying to see my weak points so that I can ask the Lord to strengthen those points.

SECOND- I am working on cleaning up my mind space and my surrounding space.  I lost my dad about 3 years ago and it still feels very new.  With that loss I have gained a lot of junk, paperwork, and treasures from the old house.  I have made it a point to sort through "all the stuff", so that I can grab a clear vision of my future.

THIRD- I am working on building a stronger relationship with my kids and hubby.  We have been cooking together more and therefore we have been eating diner together more.  I am still looking for activities that will bond us closer together.

FOURTH-  I am looking for a healthier lifestyle.  I try to walk everyday but I want to get even more consistent with it.  As I am cleaning the garage out and getting rid of all the junk, the kids have build a gym. I need to go in and work it out . . . I need to pick a day!

FIFTH- I am working on this ministry.  Some people may call it a business but I don't know what to call it really.  I just know that I have a message that I want to share with the world and that is understanding who Jesus is as the savior of the world.  God did this.  We are God's and everything in this earth is his.  I go through this process of keeping promises to myself so that I can be better for his glory.  I am almost at my goal of 10 episodes for season 1 of "All the things you need to know about the end of the World." Also, working on Mo4Mo on Insta just to keep up on sending out motivation.

SIXTH- And we are already at too many things!! But I am working on this school thing.  I want to commit to 10 hours a week.  I have to research and I have to write this dissertation.  I can do this.  I can do this because my strength comes from the Lord.   This is the only way these things can come to pass . . . God has to create a miracle. . .Here we go . . .

SEVENTH-  I am working on where I would like to be at the end of this season.  I would like to be starting my business and so thus far I am in the planning and preparation stages.  I am sure the Lord will lea me to where he needs me to go.  I would like to dedicate at least 8 hours to this goal.


There are other things that I already do everyday but I definitely want to focus on these things and transition into a new way of life for the purpose of serving the Lord.


To recap:

1- Write
2- Clean
3- Family
4- Health
5-Ministry
6- School
7- Business

. . .and these would be my essentials.

Day 35- False dreams, False Visions, False Purpose

Hello Friend,

I pray that all is well.  I am on day 35 of the Next 90 days Challenge and I am just practicing writing something everyday.  This is almost like a journal of sorts.  Weird things are happening.  I am filled with sudden bursts of energy and adrenaline.  It seems as if I drunk a lot of coffee but the thing is I haven't had a cup of coffee in like 6 months. So, I don't know why I feel this way.  It's cool.  I'm excited about a lot of things so I am going to just keep pushing through.  I am not quite at the half way point but I am feeling good.  I'm going to concentrate on this drinking water part. . . .

Anyway,  I am getting ready to record this podcast about False Dreams, False Vision, and False Purpose.  It is about the signs of the times and how to be prepared for this journey ahead of us.  We must must must be connected to the king of Glory to get the right direction in life.  We can't be distracted by false dreams.  We have to stay focused on what is important.  The most important thing about life is spreading the message of Jesus Christ.

Remember that God has loved us so much that he gave his only son to save us from our sins.  Who ever makes the choice in his heart to believe in him will not die to the burden of the sinful nature but will live forever with the creator.  Thank you Lord.


Don't get trapped in False Dreams, False Vision, and False Purpose. Develop a relationship with the Lord today.

day 34- I can, I will, I must #RiseXLIVE

- I can, I will, I must have the courage to continue.

I am having a good time at Rise X Live today.  I am listening to so much good advice and wisdom.  I took the time this morning to record episode 8 of the podcast.  It was about what we need to do next in this season. As believers in Jesus Christ we must have understanding of the season.  We need to know how to read the signs of the times.  It is time to get prepared to hear the next direction.

We must have the courage to continue. . .

I love that this conference is themed "Courage."  I want to share some major takeaways. . .

-Don't be paralyzed because you are afraid of what is going to happen.  Stop being stuck because you are always thinking of the future negatively.  Change the way you think.  Grab those negative thoughts and bring them down, evaluate them, then get rid of things that are not going to serve your growth.

-Keep the promises that you make yourself because it is going to increase the courage you have in yourself.  Be consistent in keeping your promises.  This is trustworthiness.  You are not confident in yourself because you are not consistent in keeping your promises.  How can you keep promises to someone else if you can't keep promises to yourself?

-Your identity should be steady and should not depend on circumstances.  Things will happen. Crisis will happen, but how are you going to respond to it? Your character should be strong enough to make decisions.  You have to remember who you are and who's you are.

-Don't except the story that people are telling you about yourself.  Reframe what you think you are capable of.  Believe in the purpose that God wrote for you.

- "You might have to fight a battle more than once to win it" Margaret Thatcher

-"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to your courage. . ." The way that you build courage is by using courage, it is not in a storage room but you access it by taking action.  Apply knowledge about being courageous to your life and get out of your comfort zone. We need to have courage one day at a time.  We need courage to continue. Courage requires action. You can choose to be courageous everyday.  You need courage to seek the truth even when it seems like an impossible situation.  Courage opens your eye sight. Courage changes things.

Quick thanks to Rachelle Hollis and all the speakers from Rise x Live.  Really enjoyed everyone and got a lot out of it.  Thanks bunches!

Until Next Time.

day 33- here we go

LOL, I almost forgot to start my work day by writing . . . I feel a little confused today about direction.  I get an urge in my spirit that I am supposed to do something amazing but then I get another urge telling me to be cautious about the future.  So, now I have two conflicting thoughts in my mind battling against each other, which one is true?  I am going to cast down any high thought that comes against the truth of the word of God . . . so

I am going to believe that the Lord is with me where ever I go

He will never leave me nor forsake me

He has good plans for me and hope for my future

I don't lean to my understanding but I acknowledge the Lord for his goodness and provision

I don't worry about tomorrow because tomorrow has its own troubles

I put all my trust in the Lord

I thank him continuously for answers and direction

I follow my peace and I follow his direction

I don't worry about anything but I pray about everything and I let my request be known to the Lord

I will not despise small beginnings



So, my prayer is that the Lord be with me because this is the day that I have decided to start my Art Decor Business.  How am I going to start it you ask . . .it will all start with a stationary and sticker shop . . . Here we go.

day 32 of the next 90 challenge- Live FREE

What do I know about myself?

I know that I am almost 40 years old with 20 years of marriage experience, 20 years of teaching experience and about 18 years of parenting experience . . . I know that I am still living, so therefore I am still learning.

I thank God everyday for the learning experience.  I remember my pastor saying that we could look at life as an opportunity or we can look at it as an obligation.  I choose opportunity.  I choose opportunity to live.

I also know that I am a sinner.  I know that I deserve judgment and correction for the things that I have done wrong in this life.  I thank God that he sent his son to forgive me of all those things so that I can forgive myself.  There is so much freedom when you forgive yourself!!  I am now free to live my life with no fear about what is going to happen.  God has me, he will never leave me nor forsake me.  I don't have to worry, fear, or doubt!  he has good plans for me and the only thing I have to do is to believe in those plans so that I can move forward in LIFE!!  Thank you Lord for the opportunity to live free!


That is all that I have for today . . . I'm going to go live now. . .

day 31- Fixed on stuck

I am here and I am ready to work. . .

The Lord just walked me into some pretty valuable insight.  Work doesn't have to be long, boring, or unfulfilling.  I am loving what I am doing and I thank God that he is leading  me through the journey of understanding how I need to operate in society and how I need to operate in the Kingdom.  We live in this messed up world and we can't help that.  In order to be successful in something (business, ministry, career, marriage, home, parenting etc. . .) we have to be able to transition out of the mindsets that keep us stuck in repetitive behavior.  Your decisions mean everything.  Your decisions shape your tomorrow.  Your current mindset and decision making patterns are set up to work against us, we have to learn how to work the system.  We have to figure out what makes this system work against us, then overcome those mental blocks that are keeping us fixed on stuck.

Don't be Fixed on Stuck . . .


If this is your first time reading this blog, I know, this doesn't make a lot of sense.  I write a lot about Christian living, mindsets, and spiritual awakening stuff.  I am really noticing that the Lord is allowing his people to wake up and see how this world was designed to keep us misinformed, misdirected, and simply out of the loop.  I think that we are making a shift into new understanding of what this life is really supposed to be.  I am very excited about it in fact that I started a podcast called, "All The Things You Need To Know About the End of the World."

https://anchor.fm/allthethings-endoftheworld

Sometimes, people are so stuck in their old ways that they can't find a way to get un-stuck.  It makes them sad.  They don't always know how to express that sadness so they stay hurt.  And we know that hurt people, hurt people.  Does this not explain the condition of the world?  Don't get stuck you guys.  Better yet, if you are stuck, don't stay stuck.  Remind yourself that those people who seem like your enemies, aren't really your enemies . . . they just stuck people. . .

Now, I know that I need a way to get this information out to everyone and I know how I am going to do that now.  I see the path, but I can't tell you yet.  You just have to wait and see . . .

Day 30- leaving headquarters

Hey hey,

I thank God for another beautiful day.  On this coast we are looking at a forecast of 60 to 70 degree weather all week!  This is a beautiful thing for us because we can at least go into our yards and do some yard work.  I am starting a garden.  It's coming out to be okay.  But what I learned through this life is that you have to start something in order to learn.  This is why I'm going to keep trying at this so that I can keep learning.  Believe me, the growth is happening.

 The reward of the learning doesn't happen overnight, no, you have to venture out of your comfort zone and into another realm of possibilities.  You have to leave the nest to learn how to fly.  You have to leave headquarters to learn how the battle is really won.  It does take work and effort.  It does take some type of grind to get to where you need to be.  It takes something that you have to leave behind  in order to receive the new thing.

I can go on and on on this topic but for today, I am actually leaving my house to go food shopping. Isn't God great that he can teach us the value of our home just by changing up our routines a little.  So, let us leave behind the worry, fear, and anxiety to embrace the new thing that the Lord wants us to have.  Let us grab on to hope, love, and faith.  God is always working for us, even if we can't see it.  Let us leave the headquarters of our comfort so that we can grow into the beautiful souls he designed us to be.  We are his garden.

until next time

Day What!! Day 29 #next90days - #BLESSED

This is the year 2020 the year of vision and the decade of completion . . .

Now, here goes the thing . . . is it coincidence that 20/20 is already associate with eyesight or did God plan it that way? Why can some people see the plan while others are running scared.  I just am so thankful this morning for insight, eyesight, dreams, and vision.  Here we go 2020 . .  this will be the greatest shift in life for so many people and I speak break through over those people who are stuck.  I speak salvation and direction.  I speak love and joy and hope!!  I SPEAK PEACE!!  Because this is what the Lord has for us.  He has peace for us, just waiting for us to pick it up in this 20/20.  He has understanding and wisdom for us waiting in this 20/20.

Listen . . .

In order to be in charge of your life you have to take hold of territory.
This means that we can no longer sit in a job that is ruled by rulers who don't want to see us prosper.
This means that we need to have a plan.
This doesn't mean that everyone can leave their jobs at once.
What it does mean is for us to start our businesses.
What is does mean is for us to become self sufficient.
What it does mean is for us to have courage.
What it does mean is for us to have faith that things will work out.
What is does mean is for us to get into those high positions and start changing the way people think.
What it does mean is to accept the vision.
What it does mean is to be strong and courageous, fighting the good fight, going into territory and taking what is already promised to you.  Yes, you will have to fight for it.  Yes, you will have to pray through it.  Yes, it will be hard to gain the skills necessary to get to the position that you were always meant to be at.  You are the head and not the tail.  You are above and not beneath.  You are blessed when you go in and you are blessed when you come out of this season.  BLESSED!!!


BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED

DO IT DO IT DO IT
BLESSED!!!!

We are on our way to be completed.

day 28 #Next90 Insta Queen

Here goes the thing, it is Sunday and I am posting two times. . . Why because I got distracted and didn't finish writing my post so I never published it yesterday.  Why did I get distracted you ask?  Because I was too busy trying to be  Instagram queen on my pages!! LOL . . . but I was having fun, but was feeling guilty for having fun and now I think that that post 27 was absolutely appropriate for me.  I need to learn how to fall, know that I will fall, and know that I can get back up because the Lord is here to help me and guide me. 

We are at the point in time in history to share the word of God with Power and with might and without apologies.  If the enemy can do it, then God's Kingdom can do it better!!

It is time to work this thing out. . .

Lord I pray that Christian Businesses take off
I pray that Christian ministry and influence take over the airways
Lord I pray that we deny and take away the enemies power to persuade
Lord I pray that the Power of God changes minds, perspectives, and vision!!
Lord thank you for the VISION
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for your courage that you send for us to get back up
Thank you for the teaching and the correcting
Thank you for the friendship
Thank you for the direction
Lord I pray that we start using our voices, our talents, and our purpose the way that you have designed us to use them
Lord increase your camp
and decrease the enemies territory
Lord increase our ability to see
and decrease the enemies ability to attack
Lord increase our armor
and decrease the enemy's advantage
Lord increase or unity
and divide the enemies kingdom
Lord increase our help
and decrease the enemy's vision
Lord increase our power
and decrease the enemy's illusions
Wake us up
Wake us up
Wake us up
It is time
to put on the full armor
It is time to get ready for the spiritual revolution in our souls.

Day 27 #90daychallenge- Suck it Chloe!

LOL, I was watching Rachelle on Facebook about 30 minutes after her morning show on Friday and she said the funniest thing. I actually heard her say it before but this time she had me rolling. . .

It was basically like this:

"You don't tell a one year old who is trying to learn how to walk to just give up.  Yeah, they're going to fall repeatedly, yeah there going to stumble but your not going to yell at them an tell them that they're never going to make it happen.  You're not going to be like, SUCK IT CHLOE!!"

This is definitely paraphrased but you get the point. . . .

I am looking at my current situation and I am understanding that things are not happening for me on social media like I want them to.  I am just not getting it and I do tell myself sometimes that I suck, but this is limited thinking.  This is not the way God thinks of me and it is not the way I should think of myself.  I just continue to have faith that one day, one day this thing will all come together for me.

I am on year 4 and I pray that God gives me strength to keep going. Lord make a way.  I just want to let people know how much God loves them.


Father, I pray in the name of Jesus
that all things work out for our favor
for those who are in business
For those who want to have families
For those who's families are hurting
For those who have lost someone
For those who are looking for financial break through
Help is on the way

For those who think life is unfair
For those who have been hurt
For those who are running away
For those who are struggling to see your love
Help is on the way


For those who are feeling lonely
For those who are feeling fear
For those who are feeling betrayed
For those who are feeling overwhelmed
Help is on the way

Give praise to the Lord
all ye lands
and serve our Lord with gladness
He is the one who heals
and he is the one who answers prayers
And he is the one who delivers
And he is the one who brings us our help
He is on the way

day 26- #90daychallenge-Thank you for your way

I want to think that I am doing the right thing but I know that I am not.  Not all of the time.  Sometimes we have to pause and be okay with not being perfect.  We are not perfect.  We have to depend on the Lord for our strength and our direction.  Sometimes that is going to have to be a day by day thing or a moment by moment thing.  We have to deny ourselves and walk with Jesus everyday.

I can write these things and say these things,  but if I don't put them into action, then it is empty. I could try to live to a standard of holiness, but the truth is, this culture does not give a clear picture of what true holiness is.  People hurt people because they are hurting.  The powers of darkness have managed to fool the world.  I don't want to be a fool anymore and so I pray to God that he keeps me awake.  Keep me awake dear Lord so that I can be with you forever.  Prepare a place for me dear Lord so that I can feel the redemption of your saving grace.  How can you hear us if the enemy has blocked all channels of us getting through to unbelievers?  But the Lord knows a way. But the Lord has a way.

Thank you Lord for your way . . .


Queens wake up
it is time to speak
the harvest is plentiful
on prosperity week
it is time to rumble with the dirt
and draw the serpent to his knees
and the orders
of order
and the emptiness of this world
will be filled
and it will be healed
for it is sealed
Wake up
wake up

day 25- #next90challenge- Imagine me

I am surprisingly not too upset about the 600 dollars missing from my checking account.  I don't often check my accounts considering that I don't go anywhere.  I don't really buy anything and I don't have an income for any money to really go into an account.  So only thing I live on for my personal survival is the check I get from school and the support I get from my hubby.  I am slowly not attached to the the money.  I am just learning to totally depend on my father in heaven for all provision.  This is a process.  This is a slow process because I am not totally there yet.

"Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally
finally I can, imagine me . . ."

I think this is the lyric from Kirk Franklin's song "Imagine Me." Let me look it up . . .hold the line for a sec. . .

Okay I found it:

Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally, finally I can

Imagine me

I admit it was hard to see

You being in love with someone like me

But finally I can

Imagine me

Sometimes it is hard to imagine a better life for yourself when everything around you is falling apart.  But I know that God loves me and I know that he loves you.  I know that he has compassion for the ones who are suffering, hurting, and looking for answers to this life.  God is Good all the time, and all the time God is Good.  Thank you Kirk Franklin for being a light in this world.  Thank you for being obedient to the call and thank you for being the person you are to write such sentimental words.  We need this.  Thank you for being the vessel to carry God's love message.  Thank you Lord for your plan and your purpose and your inspiration for the world.  You know what you are doing.  We trust you totally.

Lord I trust that everything is Okay with the money.  I pray that everything turns out okay with this Corona virus.  I pray that people are healed and moved into your direction.  I pray that people learn to trust your plan.  I imagine a happy world who serves the most high God, not by force or coercion, but by the evidence of truth.

Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me 'cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy 'cause
I imagine me

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
'Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again

Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally, finally I can
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can
Imagine me

Being strong
And not letting people break me down
You won't get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid?
Because of your love, fear's gone away
Can you imagine me?

Letting go of my past
And glad I have another chance
And my heart will dance
'Cause I don't have to read that page again

day 24- #90challenge -Action time

The benefit of doing comes from the experience of failing.  Failing brings key understanding, wisdom, and knowledge.  Blessed are those who love knowledge and blessed are those who seek understanding.

In all my ways and in all my effort I want to acknowledge the Lord.  I want to do his will and I live to please him.  I however don't always follow directions, or I procrastinate in the action portion of the assignment.  Procrastination is a delay and therefore a delay in the blessing.  I want to learn what I have to learn in this life so that I am not delayed the promise of the Lord.  So MOVE are the words that I say to myself today.  MOVE is what I want to convey to you today.  Do it!!  Do it!!  Do it!!

I am going to have faith in the Lord that my action is a benefit to others.


Today I do have a task list.  There are somethings that I really want to finish today.  I am working on a paper so I know that is going to take up much of my energy.  Matter of fact, I think this is going to me my focus for today.  Pick something to focus on, do it.  Make sure you take your mental breaks in between.

You got this!

day 23- Everything is Figureoutable

Everyday is every day isn't it. Every day is a huge commitment.

I have made a commitment to live this life.  I have made the commitment to write on this blog everyday,  I don't know what it means yet and I don't know how it is going to benefit me.  What I do know is that I am growing.  We are always growing even if we can't see it.  Growth happens in the dark.

I am currently reading "Everything is Figureoutable" by Marie Forleo.  It is very good so far and I do believe that I am getting a lot out of it.  I do not read it everyday because if I did I would have been finished it by now.  Maybe one day I will give you some key takeaways.  But I enjoy reading, taking my time, indulging in the words of a good story.  This is why I take my time reading a book, though I do have a goal of finishing this book this month. . .

Take the time during this time of quarantine to do something that brings you show.  I thank God for this opportunity.  In trouble there is always opportunity. . . be patient, after winter must come spring. . and remember everything is figureoutable because God already figured it out.

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Thank you Lord for allowing us this time in the line to stop and think
to breath and to feel
and to appreciate
to appreciate love
to appreciate peace
to appreciate all of the things
that will set us free
we appreciate you
we appreciate we
we appreciate all the things
that give us victory
we care about you
you care about true
thank you for all of the things
that will get us through

day 22- next 90- Judas Iscariot

Today I wake up to a cold morning in April.  I don't know why it is so cold and I am choosing to skip my walk.  But I am going to tell God thank you for waking me up.  I want to tell him thank you for showing me things.

Today I am on a search for the background life of Judas Iscariot.  Where did he come from and what was his life like before he became a disciple?  Why did Jesus choose him if he knew that he was going to betray Jesus?


 I don't want to betray Jesus. But who is the clay to say to the potter, "Why have you made me thus?"


I am writing because I am looking for connections and I want to make sense of my world.  I write everyday so that someone can take my words and download them into their soul.  Words mean something.  Thoughts mean something.  Keep thinking, dreaming, and praying for our future.  I believe that the Lord is giving us visions for the future so that we can live and strive to create a better world.

Why do some of us choose to believe the word of God while others choose to turn from it?  Why are some people faithful, while others are doubtful?  Why are some people willing to work hard, while others are schemers?  Why do we do the things that we do?  Why do most of us think like Judas Iscariot?

day 21- That should've been something.

The way I get through things is that I push through them, I write through them, I pray through them.

Everybody has a coping mechanism to deal with stress.  It is the way that the body works.  It is the way that the mind works.  Picking a coping tool that is going to be beneficial to you mental health and over all well being is the better choice.  Spending time with the people you love is the better choice than taking that drink.  Going for a walk is a better choice than smoking that weed.  Reading that book is a better choice than spending a day on Netflix.  And eating that salad is a better choice than eating that pack of cookies.

I almost ate a whole pack of cookies yesterday.  I was still drinking my warm lemon water with ginger and garlic which made those cookies taste like sugar lemon deliciousness.  But, perhaps that wasn't the best choice.   It wasn't he best choice to watch Mrs. Maisel do her comedy in Vegas because I started to dream about the meaning of life.  I found myself saying:


"CHERRY-  HOUSE  - KIDS - HUSBAND-  That should've been something."


Also, in my dream, I missed the bus.  I was at the high school, I was a student, and it was the end of the day. I actually stayed after.  Instead of walking down the hill to the elementary school where the bus picked up all the kids. I waited in the office until after 3 o'clock, a mistake.  As I finally came to my senses of where I was supposed to be, I ran down to the horse shoe parking lot to see that all the buses exiting the parking lot.  I missed my ride.  I wasn't thinking.

I don't want anyone to miss the bus on the lessons we are supposed to learn from this life.  This is why I write, so that someone can get something out of my life.  I need someone to learn from my mistakes even if I couldn't learn from them myself.  I encourage you to start writing also.  You will see more things and learn more things about who you are.  Write-reflect- learn- so that we don't keep making the same mistakes.

day 20 -last 90- What I know for sure

I have good news about life but I don't know how to share it.  I don't know the ends and outs about marketing this message.  We are at a time in history where we are shut down because of a virus.  I have to tell you that I am starting to feel the limitations to my character.

I don't know why I stopped writing on my blog.  Maybe it was getting to be too much for me.  Maybe I hadn't reached the goals that I wanted to reach with it.  I definitely don't have the readership.  I want to help people but I think that I am offering my unsolicited advice to people who don't care what I think.  They don't care because they have there own cares, their own worries, their own issues that keep them too busy to slow down and hear any good news about this whole living.

I come to realize that I need to keep writing because the message is for me as well.

Slow down.
Slow down and learn the meaning of life. . .

I feel like I want to start the next section like Oprah always ends her magazine, there are things I know for sure.


What I know for sure is that this life is not the only life to live but we shouldn't let it go to waste.  Things change, circumstances change, routines change, and inconveniences happen; it is our job to role with the punches.  It is our job to keep going because someone who is younger and looking at us need to see that we can adapt, that we can be strong and get through it.  Someone who looks up to us wants us to be strong in the face of adversity so that they can create a story of triumph in their lives.

What I know for sure is that we need to show up for the people who we love and for the people who love us.  We are all influencers.  We all matter.  It doesn't matter who sees our strength or perceives our presence on the internet. We need to be good people all of the time.

What I know for sure is that God didn't design his Kingdom for every individual to be the leader over the whole body.  No, he designed his Kingdom with citizens who are unique, with different talents and different strengths.  People are uniquely designed to be productive within a specific territory.  So, I have to start at home first.  My home is my territory.  Then we grow from where we are planted.

What I know for sure is that Jesus loves me and he will never leave me nor forsake me.  I will hold on to that promise forever and ever.

Somethings I don't know for sure but that is okay.  I find joy in the promise of everlasting life.  This is what I teach my children. The joy of the Lord is my strength

I don't have a plan of action for the Corona Virus because this has never been a thing that has happened to many of us before.  I don't know what to expect from this quarantine and I find myself at a loss.  I actually just finished crying after watching Britney Runs a Marathon on Amazon Prime because I was supposed to be better than getting into my PJ's at 5 o"clock in the evening.  I was supposed to be stronger than eating a half a pack of delicious Shop Rite sugar cookies.  I was supposed to be smarter than ignoring my kids for half the day because I was too lazy to plan quality time with them. I let them be on Netflix all day, or video games, or what ever else they found to occupy their time.  But friends, I am a miser like everyone else.  Me being a believer in Christ doesn't make me better, wiser, or unaffected by the events of this present time.  I am just making it through with Jesus and asking him to navigate me through it.  Thank you father for direction.

What I know for sure is that the Lord is with us and he works everything out for the good.

day 19-90 days- Aimee McPherson

What are my dreams?
What are my aspirations?
Why do I want to keep on living?

These are some of the big questions of life.  These are the big questions that our lives get so busy sometimes that we don't stop to think about them.  I mean really think about them.  I am on a journey to answer these big questions of life:

What is the meaning of it all?
Why am I here on this earth?

I think of a quote by a woman who lived famously in the 1920's.  She became widowed, left her second husband on a whim to start a church in California.  She had two children with her as she built a world renowned building, mega church, that attracted the young and the old to hear the message of Jesus Christ.  She said the following:

"What is my task? To get the gospel around the world in the shortest possible time to every man and woman and boy and girl! "

"We are all making a crown for Jesus out of these daily lives of ours, either a crown of golden, divine love, studded with gems of sacrifice and adoration, or a thorny crown, filled with the cruel briars of unbelief, or selfishness, and sin."

"What is my task? First of all, my task is to be pleasing to Christ. To be empty of self and be filled with himself. To be filled with the Holy Spirit; to be led by the Holy Spirit."

 Aimee Semple McPherson (1890–1944)

This too is my task.  This is why I do what I do.  I know that God is preparing me for something greater.

Check out more on Sister Aimee and the Four Square Gospel below:

https://www.viralbeliever.com/10-amazing-aimee-semple-mcpherson-quotes/

day 18- the Next 90 days

Working on my dissertation today.  Looking up articles and trying not to think too much about the other projects that I want to accomplish. . .

We are running out of time, but I had a very important thought to share.

We are living the experience to truth. . .

This is the meaning of life; to give meaning to life.  To give meaning to all of the experiences, all of the heart aches, all of the good times, the joy and the pain.  The meaning of life is to live it to the best of your ability; learning the whole time, growing through it.  Finding our way to the truth of the light.  Isn't this how we made it here in the first place, we made it to the light?

I want to put that out there.  We are growing every day and when we connect with our teacher we have a better chance of getting a passing grade.


This is day 18 of the next 90.  Thanks Dave for an awesome lesson on habits.  I am stringing my habits on to this habit of writing everyday. 

If you are interested in joining the next 90 days challenge you have to go to https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live 
I am sure they will continue this for next year and the year after that!

Speak life!!

DAY 17- Next 90 days

I am so off on the days . . . this is actually day 17 for me on the next 90 day challenge . . .  Day IDK on the quarantine.  CRAZY TIMES we are living in . . .  What are you doing during this time of staying home?

This is a challenge that is set up by Rachelle and Dave Hollis at Hollis Company.  I actually just went to the site to find out the correct spelling of the name and found that they are having a LIVE virtual conference online.  I'm excited about that since it will be happening soon, May 2nd. We had to cancel all of our vacation plans and things with the kids. I am thinking that it is something that we can do together with the kids, so I am going to buy a ticket today.

I am off of my schedule but I am learning that I have too many priorities.  With too many priorities, nothing really get's done.  I am the kind of person though, who doesn't need to see a lot of progress to motivate myself to keep going.  If you were to search for my Chinese bamboo tree post you would know what I mean . . .

https://artteacher4purpose.blogspot.com/2018/04/wisdom-for-wednesday-chinese-bamboo-tree.html

I am going to keep going no matter what.  I know that something is happening underneath all of the soil.  I believe that I am planting seeds somewhere.  Growth always happens first where you can see it.  So, I will try to form this habit of writing everyday and if it is any good, maybe I will share it will somebody!

Love you to life!

For more information on the the conference click link below.

https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live


For more information about who I am, click the link below:

artteacher4purpose.com

Day 15 of the Next 90 days

How do you remember how to do things?  By doing them everyday.

I just had another major mind shift into the correct way to live my life. I started this 90 day challenge with the intent on changing some habits. I am so happy to know that there is a way to work this thing out so that I can find out exactly what those bad habits are. I was not able to write on this blog every day. I was looking for a way out. I was looking for an easy way. When we have the mindset to do it the easy way, that is a mindset of a cheater. The only one that we are cheating when we cheat, is ourselves. Why? Because we have failed to give ourselves the opportunity to learn.


I need to write everyday. Point blank end of story. This is what a writer does . . .


Today I make the commitment to write everyday. You may not see it but I'm going to be writing everyday. Some other things that I am going to commit to are:

-Do my school work every day

-Work towards my dissertation ever day

-Spend time with my kids everyday

-clean something everyday

-pray everyday

-be thankful everyday

-move my body (exercise) ever day

-relax and enjoy life- every day

-do something that makes me happy everyday

-clean up after myself everyday

What are you going to do every day?

Even if I'm writing to myself . . . thank you God for the message to myself . . .

Seth, you were right. If I want to be a writer I should write every day.

Teacher Tuesday: Marcus Rogers

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Time to wake up friends!!  Do you know why most Christians will be going to hell? Well, Marcus Rogers is going to break it down for you. . .

I found this great teacher and prophet on YouTube.  He speaks the truth.  Everything that he is saying is something that the Holy Spirit has spoken to me about these end times.  Although I am torn sometimes about the tempo of these last measures, I am also excited that I get the confirmation that this is really happening.  I get excited that the Lord will have his way and that I am on the winning side.

Are you on the Winning Side?

I really want you all to chose the winning side.  I also want you to become equipped with the living word.  You will be tested and you will be tried.  This is spiritual warfare. So understand, the closer you get to the Lord, the more you will understand to rest in his presence but the more the enemy's kingdom will come to attack you.  Spiritual wickedness does not rest.  It is looking for your soft spot and it is coming for you.  But the Lord is your refuge and your strength.  He will cover you always. . .

Do not be afraid of the terror of the night or the arrows that fly in the day, the Lord is your protection.  However, you must really believe, not half way, but really believe it.

Strange things are happening friends.  Learn the ways of the Lord.  Change the way you are thinking about this world.  It will let you down every time because it was not made for you to succeed in.  The only way to succeed is by following the way of the Lord.  Follow the will of God.  Deny what you think you know and claim your new mind.

I just wanted to introduce this young man so that you can subscribe to his channel.  He is telling you about the signs of the times and about what is happening in society right now.  He is telling you what is about to transpire for Christians in America, especially those who are just "playing Christian."

Friends, it is time to wake up.  This is the time to equip yourself with the mind of Christ.  We have to stop living for the world and we have to start spreading this message of eternal life.  The enemy just wants to trick your mind.  He has been doing it for so long that he is starting to usher in a new order for his benefit and your destruction.  But do not be weary in your spirit.  The Lord will take care of you.

Check out Marcus and what he says about getting our minds right. . . he has other great videos about how we should view our government and the things that are going on with the government shut down.

Great teacher to promote on Teacher Tuesday

Marcus Rogers

Until Next Time

-Tamorra

day 2- Next 90days

Day 2- write everyday
I have written a little bit for the book.  I want to be finished this book.  I am bored with this book.

The way that I write is in thought blurbs so I have a lot of thought blurbs to piece together for this project. I actually think that I have all the writing complete I just have to edit it and put it together.  I don't like editing, it's the most un-fun part of writing that I have to do except when it is fun.  This is hard to explain. . . I think it becomes fun to me when things start to come together and the picture becomes what I envisioned it to be.  I like it when words start to shine their light on the page . . . yes, that make sense to me. . . Yes, that is what I meant to say!

I wrote my 5,000 quota last week and the 10,000 the week before.   I now need to edit those 15,000 plus words and stick them with the other 60,000 that I have already written.  Then, yes then we will have a very Strange Master piece . . .

What did I learn today?

It doesn't profit you anything to work all of your days at the attempt to build a legacy, if you don't take the time today to appreciate the legacy you already have.


What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul?


Take is easy Mar, take it easy.


Don't miss out on your life young one
Don't let it pass you by
Don't let it toss you away from your peace
Don't let it watch you cry
Pick your self up today
and dust off your troubled heart
For what you dream
and who you are
are not too far apart

but live today
be set free
to love
to learn
to play

When your life is set to live
you will live another day