About Stress and Uncertainty
. . .I had been doing a lot of thinking lately. I have been a student of life. I have been asking God a whole lot of questions and he has been giving me answers. The answers have not been exactly what I expected but I know that they are truth and I know that they are life. . .
. . . I have come to the realization that I pour so much of myself out that I have failed to receive what I need to keep going. When I'm all spent, I lay on the couch or in my bed, weak and unmotivated to get up. This has been a cycle for me, especially since I had stopped working. . .
. . .The continuous source of affirmations and accolades has left. I no longer have people around me telling me "good job." I don't have that source anymore and so I am constantly checking how many followers I have or how many likes I received just so that I can get that serge of dopamine that would so encourage me to keep going . . . However God is teaching me that this is not how you get what you need, not really. . .
. . .That instant gratification of a "like" will only keep you a float for so long, instead the reasons why you do something, the real reason why you do something, has to come from another place. The real reason why you do something has to fill you up from a supernatural source that knows your purpose. Your purpose will never run dry. Your purpose bucket is always waiting to be refilled from the one who has made it in the first place. . .
. . .Hence there is no comment, no dislike,non follow, nor any negative criticism that will ever destroy my passion to complete my purpose. This is in me. My purpose is a part of me. My purpose is what keeps me alive. . .
. . . And so I will learn how to navigate my life with the navigation of my purpose. I am tired right now and I may not feel like taking another step, but eventually my purpose will kick in and it will take me to higher heights, deeper oceans, and longer roads. I will press through, over, and out of any bondage that has been set against me. . .
. . .I am not afraid of the process. I am not afraid of the commitment. I am not afraid of the terror of night nor by the arrows that fly by day. My God has not given me spirit of fear, but of love, of power, and sound mind. . .