You cannot redeem yourself. No matter how hard you try to make everything right again in your life, You can't fix it, you have to go to the hospital. You are wounded. You are wounded. . .
There are several things that I want to touch on hear today
Saul & David
Kingdom
Mindset
perspective
Jesus
I had several major break throughs this weekend. I realized that I had adopted an intellectual understanding of forgiveness but I had never put it to practice. Well, I did once before but I had forgotten how to do it when a series of unfortunate hurts hurled themselves upon my comfort zone. I was in a dizzy spell, an illusion of calm. I kept telling myself that I was ok, but I wasn't. I was hurt by someone else's words that stabbed me repeatedly while laughing in glee to how it slaughtered my spirit. My soul aches into a million pieces of doubt and self sabotage. I did not feel like I was good enough to be me.
Thank God for people who have been through similar hurts. Thank God for friends and family who sincerely care about my well being an about my purpose. Thank you, to those people who lovingly except me for who I am and share a vision for you I am to become. I love you all.
Here is the thing. There are and will always be people who mean to do you harm. However, they don't know why. They don't really understand the complexities of the mind and what drives human behavior. People do what they do because of the way they feel. So many people are driven by their emotions. Should it be this way? I don't know, but we do it. The thing is that there are certain people that make you feel a certain way and this is why you treat them the way you treat them and vise versa. For example if you are threatened by a person's strengths you may subconsciously feel the need to attack those strengths. If that person subconsciously reads your passive aggressive behavior/comments as an attack, then that person may avoid being around you. Then you notice that that person is avoiding you and running away, so you chase after him or her. So on and so forth. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
I am realizing, as I write, that I just explained my marriage. I also just explained my relationship with my late church family. At this moment I am going to comment real quick on what I was actually referring to which was Saul's relationship with David. But let me add before we discuss it, forgiveness is a very important ingredient to moving on with your life.
You can find this story in I Samuel chapter 8 -30. You should read it, great study.
There was this guy, who was handsome, he was tall, and he looked like a king. There was this other guy, who was one of God's prophets who was told to anoint this good looking guy as the leader of the Israelites (God's chosen people). So this prophet (Samuel) hooked the guy up with the title, the prestige, and the notoriety. People loved him and wanted him to be their king. So this young guy, who became a warrior, who also became well liked, and also kind of famous; became the king. His name was Saul, and he love every minute of it. He was the man.
The thing was, Samuel, the prophet had told Saul that God wanted him to war against and kill a local group of people, the Amalekites. This sounds cruel, but these people were evil people who set out to destroy the children of Israel. Saul didn't do his duty as king because he listened to the people. He wanted to please the people, because we wanted to be liked by the people. . .
People: "Yo, Saul my man, we should spare the good cattle, we can eat for years!"
Saul: "IDK, we should do what the Lord says to do. . ."
People: "Yeah but, think about how much bigger and better the Kingdom will be if you where to not kill the king. Other people will be afraid of you!"
People: "Yes, lets get all of their stuff and bring it back with us, so that we can get all of the praise and the glory for not only defeating the Amalekites, but also bringing back a whole lot of stuff."
Saul: "Ok, this will be good, then we can make a burnt offering to the Lord. Sounds like a plan. I love you guys, your awesome!"
But when Saul came back with all the "STUFF," Samuel was like "What have you done!?"
Samuel was heated:
"Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the LORD? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
So, because of Saul's attitude and disobedience he was told that the Kingdom was not going to be given to his descendants. The Lord was going to give the kingdom to someone else. Why was this? Because Saul's disobedience reflected what was in his heart. He was more concerned about pleasing the people then he was about pleasing God. When we hold these types of beliefs and values in our heart, we are also subconsciously programming them into our children. Therefore, there was not one descendant in Saul's family line that would carry on the proper Kingdom message. Saul's family would have been more self serving and people pleasing. Saul's line would have easily been persuaded by compliments and bribes. Saul did not fully grasp his value as the KING, the one who says the decree which everyone had to listen to for the very reason that he was the king. Saul knew that there was going to be a man who was going to take his place. This man's name was David. He was a man after God's own heart.
To make a long story short:
Ironically, Saul became David's mentor. David loved Saul and Saul loved David. But deep down Saul was extremely threatened by David. He was drawn to his strength as a warrior and he was drawn to his peace. However Saul was also jealous of David and wanted to kill him. David picked up on the clues, and ran away. Saul pursued after him, still trying to kill him. But because the Lord was on David's side, David showed sympathy, kindness, respect, mercy, and forgiveness towards Saul, his current King. It was because of David's attitude of forgiveness that he was able to grow from his experience.
Here is your Motivation for Monday:
Forgiveness is a powerful tool
Forgive someone today and see how much God will elevate you
I had the break through that I have held both positions in various relationships. I had been the Saul and I had been the David. Saul was never able to forgive himself for his wrong thinking when he didn't obey the word of the Lord. He wasn't able to because he didn't have the help of the Holy Spirit to guide him. He self sabotaged his growth. He condemned himself. But David's nature knew the mercy of the Lord. He had the heart to ask for forgiveness throughout his life. He did not self sabotage himself. He made mistakes, but he was able to move on from them. This made him a great king. We are descendants of this King's heart. We can be descendants of this kingdom through accepting the mind gift of Jesus Christ.
Today I forgive those who have hurt me
I forgive those who I feel have abandoned me
I forgive those who said unkind words about me or to me
I forgive those who are jealous of my peace
I forgive those who are jealous of my relationship with the Lord
I forgive those who seek to destroy me
I ask forgiveness from those who I have spoke against
I ask forgiveness for my wrong thinking
I ask forgiveness for my passive aggressive behavior
I ask forgiveness for ignoring those who are important to me
I ask forgiveness for my pride
I forgive my self for my lack of knowledge
I forgive myself for my failures
I forgive myself for disorganization
I forgive myself for my disobedience
I forgive myself for my slothfulness
I thank God for sending his son to allow me to forgive myself and to forgive others.
David always held Saul in high regard, as a servant of the God, regardless of his evil actions. David exercised forgiveness, and his very conflict with his opponent made him a better king. David did not hold on to resentment, but he respected and forgave Saul. This was major growth for him. At the same time, David wasn't stupid, he saw the plan to take his life and he went to seek protection elsewhere. He grew in other places he went, as a man of God. He had to travel a necessary journey to become a King.
I pray that this speaks to your heart. I pray that you have a practice of forgiveness in your life.
Today I forgive so that I can grow
oh I feel the power of letting go
I see the vision of the dream deferred
I press forward speaking the word
I thank you hurt and pain for showing me who I have to be
I thank you forgiveness, love, and mercy
It is your power that gives me new life
Now I can be me, with no toil, with no strife
Oh I receive the inheritance of riches untold
I seek the Kingdom, worth more than gold
It is worth more than any applause, or any title
I will get to where I am going, if I wait just awhile
I seek protection in the caves, in the shadows, and in the war
I will never forget, what I am fighting for.
Until Next Time:
Tamorra
Check this one out. I relearned this lesson hard. Now it is my turn to take the Lord's advice. He is the one to redeem, not myself!!!
https://artteacher4purpose.com/2017/03/23/3-spiritual-exercises/
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