All the Things you need to know about the end of the world

Notes on life: Thank you

All I really have in this current existence are my thoughts about how I see the world. 
In this vision I tally the wins of all my merits.
I attempt to measure the length of my days.
I compare the accomplishments of my life with others and still I am empty. 
I think I am almost enthralled in the trap of achievement.
I know in the deep down of my mind that this too will lead to nowhere
and yet I go down the road curious of what I will find. 
Because too often I am alone in my thoughts.
Curiouser and curiouser I journey into the unknown.
I pick up habits that don’t belong to me and they weigh heavy on my soul.
Rest is calling and I often run away. 
Love is calling and I struggle to win another day.
Can I add a cubit to my stature by how I think about this life?
Or is it grace, is it mercy, is it the light of life and forgiveness that carries me when I have done all that I can do to try to win. 
When I cross the line I faint because I have no more to give.
But my Lord, he carries me and breathes into me new life,
although I curse him everyday with my struggle to be better than his most precious.
As I fall I realize, I am no better, I am no stronger, I am no wiser or astute to the lessons of living.
I fall and I need a savior to catch me.
I bruise and I need a healer to heal me. 
I stain and I stink and I mock the kindness of the lowly.
Still a gift of forgiveness waits for me to untie the lovely deep red bow,
and tear the paper back gently,
and open the box of truth where my real life lives.
Forever and ever is what this gift gives.
Thank you for the gift for all life to live.

Notes on Life: Why are we self sufficient?

Self sufficiency,

We do so much by ourselves and for ourselves.  Are we really asking for help?

We know how to pray ourselves through
meditate our selves through
exercise through
talk through
Walk through
Faith through
believe through
work through
therapy through
eat through
church through
survive through
We know how to adapt
We know how to keep living

It is a marvelous thing what this body can do.  It is a marvelous thing what this mind can do.  But these things can not continue to do without God.


Why do we feel that we have to do it all when the Lord says: Give it to me and rest. . .

Notes on life: Do we want help from the Lord?

This is not a motivation for Monday . . .. This is the unveiling of what life really is, A huge learning experience.  It is a time of reflection and growth and interaction with the world around us.  It is a period of time that we can come out of our selves's to consider the perspective of others if we so choose to love them.  If we choose to really see life through their eyes.

I woke up this morning with the intention of working all day.  I wanted to commit to the tasks that I know I have to do.  You know how we commit ourselves to those things that are not really important.  Family is important, friends, and God is important.  Building our relationship with Jesus is important.  However I am saddened by the hurt in the world and the perspective of Jesus it carries with it.

I have been accused of proselytizing on too many occasions.  I am at this moment reflecting on why people only see me as a woman of faith, a woman who is upright and dedicated to serving the Lord.  A woman who is forceful in the message with no sympathy to those who are living life the best they can.  For I am only a person with grief and pain and opportunities to grow like any other.  I fail everyday like anyone else.  I'm not trying to force feed anyone my perspective of faith, I just want to share my relationship with the Lord.  But what I am learning is that not everyone sees it that way.  I have to sit back  and consider that point of view.  How can I win souls for Jesus when it seems like no one cares.  And those who do care cannot be convince that we have so far to go.

What do I do Lord about my Life?  What do I do Lord about the ministry?  People are looking for away out but they don't understand that what they are looking for is you.  How do you help people when they have become so self sufficient and therefore don't want your help?