I have no idea what day it is on my challenge. I am past the 45 day mark and I am writing everyday, just not on this blog. I feel like I am running myself down and I want things to get easier.
BUT
I know that all things work together for the good, for those who love God, for those that are the called according to his purpose . . .
AND I KNOW
That the Lord will never leave me nor forsake me
AND I KNOW
That my work is not in vain
AND I KNOW
That the Lord is with me where ever I go.
I will be strong and courageous
BECAUSE I KNOW
That I am the head and not the tail
I am above and not beneath
I am blessed and highly favored
I am blessed when I go in and when I come out
I am blessed
My joy is in the Lord
My strength comes from the Lord
I am healed
I am a daughter of the most high and so
I BELIEVE IN THE PROMISE OF EVERLASTING LIFE!!!
I REJOICE IN MY SUFFERING!!!
because I will endure through the strengthening of my character
I have faith that he chose me for a reason
I am his workmanship
and he will continue the work in me until his coming
I will not throw away my confidence
I am more than a conqueror
nothing shall separate me from the love of God!!
Try me devil and I will go harder
Try me and I will speak Louder
The Lord is with me where ever I go
LETS GO!!!
Tuesday, May 19, 2020
Monday, May 18, 2020
life coach- edited out of Strange and Peculiar
No, I don’t want to be a life coach. I am just little me, trying to learn about my Great God. I much prefer to be called a perspective coach. I chose to write about what I see from a Christian worldview and try to put meaning to life based on the truth of God’s word. I really want everyone to see that God is in control of this whole thing. I want people to see that there is purpose to process.
The Lord says to me, just like he is speaking to you, turn from the ways of the world, change your mind and I will restore you. Change your mind so that honest and true words come out of your mouth and I will make you my spokesman. I am not trying to hurt people, although I know that they are hurting. I am not trying to convert people, although I know Jesus is calling you. He has chosen to save the world and I serve a God who does not fail. He will save you even when you are offended by it.
God loved this world so much that he sacrificed his only son to help us change our minds. The power of the Holy Spirit will destroy the traps that the enemy has placed on your mind and Israel will be restored. But who is Israel and who is Judah? There was a time in the past where history was written for truth and a time after where history was written for alternate agendas. This is a strange thing that has happened in the earth. The questions that used to be asked about life have dwindled down to meaningless activity. We don’t have time for this type of living anymore. It is time to start living.
- ORIGINAL EXCERPT FROM STRANGE AND PECULIAR
Friday, May 15, 2020
day 46- Wisdom
This is what I know about Wisdom . . .
It is good to love it and I love it. But I think I grasped a different definition of Wisdom this morning. . .
I have been reading proverbs which is basically the go to book for wisdom. Isn't it interesting that there isn't just one definition of what wisdom is, but it is talked about, contrasted with foolishness, and expounded upon with stories and examples:
Th fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom . . .
In my youth I always thought this to mean that we need to give reverence and respect to God or else. But As I grew to know the Lord a little better, I knew it to mean that the respect of the word of God (The law of God) is the beginning of Wisdom. When we are talking about the Law, we are talking about the natural order of things. The law of cause and effect, the law gravity, the law of energy, the law of expectancy, the law of love, the law of forgiveness, the law of giving, the law of sowing and reaping; so on and so forth. People may think that they have discovered these things, but it is God who allows us to discover these things which leads us to the greatest and ultimate law of all: God made everything and everything in this earth is his and the fullness thereof; which means that God is in total control. If God is indeed in total control, then he created the law to work according to his purpose, so, all things work together according to his purpose. Hence, there are just somethings that we don't have to figure out.
However, there are things that are pertaining to our survival that we should figure out. The search for these answers are wisdom. Now here is something that I learned this morning:
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom
The fear of the Lord is instruction of Wisdom; and before honor is humility
Therefore, the instruction of wisdom is the beginning of Wisdom
Wisdom is the willingness to see that we are wrong about so many things in this life. We think we figure things out but without the knowledge of the word of God, we do not know anything . . .
Therefore, the ways of a man is always right in his own eyes, but the Lord weigheth the spirits, which brings us full circle to the understanding that God is in control of everything (see Proverbs 15:31-33 and 16:2)
What does this mean exactly?
This means true Wisdom is the ability to hear the correction of the Holy Spirit, to turn from the wrong ways of thinking to the righteous way of thinking. How can we find this way? There is only one way, God's way; through the shed blood of his son Jesus Christ! It all makes sensee to me. Wisdom is knowing Jesus. Wisdom is accepting the gift of salvation through Jesus. Wisdom is believing. Wisdom is following the direction of the Lord (The Law, The word). Wisdom, my friends, is listening to and believing in the instruction from the Holy Spirit.
So, how can we apply this to our lives? We have to humble ourselves to the point of understanding that we do not know everything, but we are going to trust in God's way. Humility is a necessary ingredient to salvation. Sometimes we have to be broken in order to ask for the help we need from the son. It only takes a simple prayer:
Lord I am weak
It is good to love it and I love it. But I think I grasped a different definition of Wisdom this morning. . .
I have been reading proverbs which is basically the go to book for wisdom. Isn't it interesting that there isn't just one definition of what wisdom is, but it is talked about, contrasted with foolishness, and expounded upon with stories and examples:
Th fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom . . .
In my youth I always thought this to mean that we need to give reverence and respect to God or else. But As I grew to know the Lord a little better, I knew it to mean that the respect of the word of God (The law of God) is the beginning of Wisdom. When we are talking about the Law, we are talking about the natural order of things. The law of cause and effect, the law gravity, the law of energy, the law of expectancy, the law of love, the law of forgiveness, the law of giving, the law of sowing and reaping; so on and so forth. People may think that they have discovered these things, but it is God who allows us to discover these things which leads us to the greatest and ultimate law of all: God made everything and everything in this earth is his and the fullness thereof; which means that God is in total control. If God is indeed in total control, then he created the law to work according to his purpose, so, all things work together according to his purpose. Hence, there are just somethings that we don't have to figure out.
However, there are things that are pertaining to our survival that we should figure out. The search for these answers are wisdom. Now here is something that I learned this morning:
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom
The fear of the Lord is instruction of Wisdom; and before honor is humility
Therefore, the instruction of wisdom is the beginning of Wisdom
Wisdom is the willingness to see that we are wrong about so many things in this life. We think we figure things out but without the knowledge of the word of God, we do not know anything . . .
Therefore, the ways of a man is always right in his own eyes, but the Lord weigheth the spirits, which brings us full circle to the understanding that God is in control of everything (see Proverbs 15:31-33 and 16:2)
What does this mean exactly?
This means true Wisdom is the ability to hear the correction of the Holy Spirit, to turn from the wrong ways of thinking to the righteous way of thinking. How can we find this way? There is only one way, God's way; through the shed blood of his son Jesus Christ! It all makes sensee to me. Wisdom is knowing Jesus. Wisdom is accepting the gift of salvation through Jesus. Wisdom is believing. Wisdom is following the direction of the Lord (The Law, The word). Wisdom, my friends, is listening to and believing in the instruction from the Holy Spirit.
So, how can we apply this to our lives? We have to humble ourselves to the point of understanding that we do not know everything, but we are going to trust in God's way. Humility is a necessary ingredient to salvation. Sometimes we have to be broken in order to ask for the help we need from the son. It only takes a simple prayer:
Lord I am weak
and I don't know as much as I think I know
Help me find the way
Help me to accept your gift of salvation
I am willing to believe that Jesus Christ died for my wrong thinking
Even if it doesn't make sense to me right now
I believe
Help my unbelief
Humility-Belief-Wisdom-Honor
Day 45 - Risk
Day 45
These are my reflections from Thursday but I'm writing them today:
Skipped a day again!! I really need to get better at this!! LOL . . . I'm not really fretting though, I had a good day yesterday. I had a day of working in the yard, which was relaxing for me. I find that when things become a little too overwhelming for me the best thing for me to do is something quiet and away from other people. It relaxes me to work in the yard. Strangely enough, my hubby was planting an herb garden on the other side of the house and I helped him out a little. The strange thing was that he was the person I was trying to get away from. He was really trying my patience the last few days and I wanted to run away. This happens sometimes with the people you love. Especially when you are stuck at home with them for quarantine! But sometimes when we feel like running away into our quiet spaces of protection, we shouldn't stay in there for very long. We take the time to rest then we take action to face our fears. Anyway, I am better now. Doing some writing today.
I submitted a few queries to some agents the other day. This was a big step for me since my mind has to grasp the understanding that good things can happen for me outside of the reality of what I believe is normal. You know, I understood from my upbringing that going to school and getting a degree was normal. I had the understanding that going into education and becoming a teacher was a pretty normal way of making a living. The writing though, no. Having a successful writing career is for special people, talented people. I was never told that I was talented at writing and so I have no reason to believe it. But God. God is telling me something so different and so I am learning to trust him. I am learning to believe different things about my life story. I am learning to take risks.
It is funny because when I listened to Rachel Hollis speak on resilience this week, I didn't expect for her to talk about attempting to write a book in two months. But she said it was something that was on her heart to do. It was something that she felt she had to do even with so many other things that she was attempting to handle in this season. So that inspired me to put myself out there beyond the self-publishing market. I am going to "Believe Bigger" like Marshawn taught me and take a risk at my big dreams. I am going to leave my comfort zone and ask an agent for help in getting my book published!!!
Guess what else happened. I just received my Magnolia Journal Magazine and this season's theme is RISK!! I have been reading and I am pretty sure the Lord is speaking to me to take the risk.
These are my reflections from Thursday but I'm writing them today:
Skipped a day again!! I really need to get better at this!! LOL . . . I'm not really fretting though, I had a good day yesterday. I had a day of working in the yard, which was relaxing for me. I find that when things become a little too overwhelming for me the best thing for me to do is something quiet and away from other people. It relaxes me to work in the yard. Strangely enough, my hubby was planting an herb garden on the other side of the house and I helped him out a little. The strange thing was that he was the person I was trying to get away from. He was really trying my patience the last few days and I wanted to run away. This happens sometimes with the people you love. Especially when you are stuck at home with them for quarantine! But sometimes when we feel like running away into our quiet spaces of protection, we shouldn't stay in there for very long. We take the time to rest then we take action to face our fears. Anyway, I am better now. Doing some writing today.
I submitted a few queries to some agents the other day. This was a big step for me since my mind has to grasp the understanding that good things can happen for me outside of the reality of what I believe is normal. You know, I understood from my upbringing that going to school and getting a degree was normal. I had the understanding that going into education and becoming a teacher was a pretty normal way of making a living. The writing though, no. Having a successful writing career is for special people, talented people. I was never told that I was talented at writing and so I have no reason to believe it. But God. God is telling me something so different and so I am learning to trust him. I am learning to believe different things about my life story. I am learning to take risks.
It is funny because when I listened to Rachel Hollis speak on resilience this week, I didn't expect for her to talk about attempting to write a book in two months. But she said it was something that was on her heart to do. It was something that she felt she had to do even with so many other things that she was attempting to handle in this season. So that inspired me to put myself out there beyond the self-publishing market. I am going to "Believe Bigger" like Marshawn taught me and take a risk at my big dreams. I am going to leave my comfort zone and ask an agent for help in getting my book published!!!
Guess what else happened. I just received my Magnolia Journal Magazine and this season's theme is RISK!! I have been reading and I am pretty sure the Lord is speaking to me to take the risk.
"The definition of risk is a situation that exposes you to danger."
"Without Risk, it can become easy to settle into consistency, security, and stability. Without Risk, I wonder if we could ever experience growth. . ."
-Magnolia Journal Summer 2020
Here we go
Tuesday, May 12, 2020
Day 44- Resilience
This week on the next 90 day challenge the Hollis Co. is talking about resilience. I am all about it. Someone tell me how to be resilient because I am tired. I am warn down. I am ready to take a nap. Rachelle says resilience is fighting through, picking yourself up and doing the hard things regardless of how hard they are. Today, I am trying to push myself. Today, I am trying to be resilient but I really want to take a nap . . .
But here I am writing and rambling about nothing much. I write all of the time just to get things out of my head. I was writing all these little weird notes and reflections to myself because I wanted to put them into my new book: Strange and Peculiar. I'm working on it. I have it on my to do list to send out my query letters. I just came from Walmart buying the paper. I have a list of agents to send the letters to. I don't know. I guess that I am scared. I am scared that I won't get the answer that I want. I'm going to try anyway because I know that I serve a God that wants the best for me in this land of opportunity. But more than that I serve a God who wants the world to know that God loves them. God has sent a loving gift that will save us from the evil governing of this world.
As I write, I am filled with the awesome understanding that I am privileged. Everyone doesn't have this opportunity to be home, in a house with electricity, plumbing, food, a computer and TV. I want to be in the position where my heart cares more for people in need then for my own well being. The Lord is working on me. I will try to be better at not complaining about how tired I am. Instead, I will be thankful that I have a bed to lay down in. Thank you Lord for placing me here. Help me help others who are praying for a better life. This is why I write. This is why I serve the Lord. This is why I will be resilient.
But here I am writing and rambling about nothing much. I write all of the time just to get things out of my head. I was writing all these little weird notes and reflections to myself because I wanted to put them into my new book: Strange and Peculiar. I'm working on it. I have it on my to do list to send out my query letters. I just came from Walmart buying the paper. I have a list of agents to send the letters to. I don't know. I guess that I am scared. I am scared that I won't get the answer that I want. I'm going to try anyway because I know that I serve a God that wants the best for me in this land of opportunity. But more than that I serve a God who wants the world to know that God loves them. God has sent a loving gift that will save us from the evil governing of this world.
As I write, I am filled with the awesome understanding that I am privileged. Everyone doesn't have this opportunity to be home, in a house with electricity, plumbing, food, a computer and TV. I want to be in the position where my heart cares more for people in need then for my own well being. The Lord is working on me. I will try to be better at not complaining about how tired I am. Instead, I will be thankful that I have a bed to lay down in. Thank you Lord for placing me here. Help me help others who are praying for a better life. This is why I write. This is why I serve the Lord. This is why I will be resilient.
Monday, May 11, 2020
Day 42 and 43- Take it by stride
I did not post Yesterday!! Why? Because first of all I was out of my routine . . . second it was Mother's Day and my day got full fast.
So, Hope everyone had a Happy Mother's Day!! I did . . . it was so relaxing and enjoyable because I didn't really plan the day out, but I did what was on my heart to do. I cleared out some paper work, I worked on my garden, and I visited my mother in law. My girls told me to relax, so they cleaned the kitchen. They did a good job. I do wish I had time to read my book, but I traded that for some chat with old friends and quality time with my hubby. I had a good day!
I didn't want to lie to myself and make two separate post for yesterday and today. I am learning how to be true to myself so that I can look at things the way they really are and not the way I wish them to be. It is only when we observe our flaws, our failures, and our misses that we can evaluate how we can be better. I am who I am and I like me.
The following are somethings that I learned about myself this past week . . .
I take things in stride
I am a hard worker
I commit to things
I also over commit to things
I enjoy time with my family
I clean out to let more blessings in
I like spending time with family
I am a little stingy with money
I don't always complete things when I'm tired
I have a lot of things on my mind
My intentions are good, but not always realized
I get angry and frustrated when I can't do what I want to do
I can be bossy sometimes
The following is what I'm going to work on:
I am going to work on planning my schedule to complete the task that I need to do.
I will no longer be a procrastinator.
I will learn how to tell people no because my plans for my life are important!
How will I do this?
I am working on creating a string of habits that will help me reach my goals and help me not to procrastinate on tasks. I will do this through routines. My first routine will be my morning and my second will be my night. I know now that what ever I do at night is going to effect my morning.
Now it sounds like I'm rambling but I have to take this thing in stride. You do to. Day by day. This is how we get better. Take inventory of your life and figure out what is keeping you stuck. Some areas might be better than others but there is always room to improve.
So, Hope everyone had a Happy Mother's Day!! I did . . . it was so relaxing and enjoyable because I didn't really plan the day out, but I did what was on my heart to do. I cleared out some paper work, I worked on my garden, and I visited my mother in law. My girls told me to relax, so they cleaned the kitchen. They did a good job. I do wish I had time to read my book, but I traded that for some chat with old friends and quality time with my hubby. I had a good day!
I didn't want to lie to myself and make two separate post for yesterday and today. I am learning how to be true to myself so that I can look at things the way they really are and not the way I wish them to be. It is only when we observe our flaws, our failures, and our misses that we can evaluate how we can be better. I am who I am and I like me.
The following are somethings that I learned about myself this past week . . .
I take things in stride
I am a hard worker
I commit to things
I also over commit to things
I enjoy time with my family
I clean out to let more blessings in
I like spending time with family
I am a little stingy with money
I don't always complete things when I'm tired
I have a lot of things on my mind
My intentions are good, but not always realized
I get angry and frustrated when I can't do what I want to do
I can be bossy sometimes
The following is what I'm going to work on:
I am going to work on planning my schedule to complete the task that I need to do.
I will no longer be a procrastinator.
I will learn how to tell people no because my plans for my life are important!
How will I do this?
I am working on creating a string of habits that will help me reach my goals and help me not to procrastinate on tasks. I will do this through routines. My first routine will be my morning and my second will be my night. I know now that what ever I do at night is going to effect my morning.
Now it sounds like I'm rambling but I have to take this thing in stride. You do to. Day by day. This is how we get better. Take inventory of your life and figure out what is keeping you stuck. Some areas might be better than others but there is always room to improve.
Saturday, May 9, 2020
Day 41- Committed
Happy Saturday!!
I am resting and trying to get myself to understand my mind position. I mean, I want to relay the idea to myself that mindset matters on so many levels. I want to know why I'm stuck. I have been making major mind shifts over the years but I recently feel stuck in one particular area: Finances. I am sure that even though I don't see him, the Lord is working things out in my favor.
A recent thought keeps showing up in my day to day. The thought is about commitment. I understand that commitment is a key and this is one reason why I am doing this 90 day challenge. I want to develop the mind that it takes to keep at something, to finish things to the end. I know that I can do it with school, because I did it before. This doctoral stuff though is different. It is more about believing in myself, believing that I have what it takes to finish. I want to believe in myself, but above that, I want to have complete and utter trust in the Lord. I am still in the process of learning how to do this with my whole heart. So, the thought about commitment leads me to committing my life to the Lord again and again. This is not to suggest that I became unsaved, but it is to say that the Lord teaches us bit by bit. We are supposed to acknowledge the Lord for teaching us his ways. We are supposed to keep learning and to keep growing. We are learning to be all in. We are learning to believe more fully everyday. I am all in. And if I am all in, then nothing else matters. . .
This is the thought that I am pondering. If I made a commitment to serve the Lord, then why do other things seem important? I am overwhelmed because I am putting other things before the Lord. I over commit myself because I did not take correct inventory of my time. This has to change. And since the Lord tells me to ask and I will receive, I ask him today:
Lord help me be committed to you and only you. And let me trust in you enough to do everything for me that I can not do for myself. The glory is to God that I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. This is a good deal. Thank you Lord.
I have a goal to spread the good news about the Kingdom, nothing else matters.
I am resting and trying to get myself to understand my mind position. I mean, I want to relay the idea to myself that mindset matters on so many levels. I want to know why I'm stuck. I have been making major mind shifts over the years but I recently feel stuck in one particular area: Finances. I am sure that even though I don't see him, the Lord is working things out in my favor.
A recent thought keeps showing up in my day to day. The thought is about commitment. I understand that commitment is a key and this is one reason why I am doing this 90 day challenge. I want to develop the mind that it takes to keep at something, to finish things to the end. I know that I can do it with school, because I did it before. This doctoral stuff though is different. It is more about believing in myself, believing that I have what it takes to finish. I want to believe in myself, but above that, I want to have complete and utter trust in the Lord. I am still in the process of learning how to do this with my whole heart. So, the thought about commitment leads me to committing my life to the Lord again and again. This is not to suggest that I became unsaved, but it is to say that the Lord teaches us bit by bit. We are supposed to acknowledge the Lord for teaching us his ways. We are supposed to keep learning and to keep growing. We are learning to be all in. We are learning to believe more fully everyday. I am all in. And if I am all in, then nothing else matters. . .
When you don't commit to a goal 100% than other things seem important. . .
This is the thought that I am pondering. If I made a commitment to serve the Lord, then why do other things seem important? I am overwhelmed because I am putting other things before the Lord. I over commit myself because I did not take correct inventory of my time. This has to change. And since the Lord tells me to ask and I will receive, I ask him today:
Lord help me be committed to you and only you. And let me trust in you enough to do everything for me that I can not do for myself. The glory is to God that I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. This is a good deal. Thank you Lord.
I have a goal to spread the good news about the Kingdom, nothing else matters.
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