What do I know about myself?
I know that I am almost 40 years old with 20 years of marriage experience, 20 years of teaching experience and about 18 years of parenting experience . . . I know that I am still living, so therefore I am still learning.
I thank God everyday for the learning experience. I remember my pastor saying that we could look at life as an opportunity or we can look at it as an obligation. I choose opportunity. I choose opportunity to live.
I also know that I am a sinner. I know that I deserve judgment and correction for the things that I have done wrong in this life. I thank God that he sent his son to forgive me of all those things so that I can forgive myself. There is so much freedom when you forgive yourself!! I am now free to live my life with no fear about what is going to happen. God has me, he will never leave me nor forsake me. I don't have to worry, fear, or doubt! he has good plans for me and the only thing I have to do is to believe in those plans so that I can move forward in LIFE!! Thank you Lord for the opportunity to live free!
That is all that I have for today . . . I'm going to go live now. . .
Thursday, April 30, 2020
Wednesday, April 29, 2020
day 31- Fixed on stuck
I am here and I am ready to work. . .
The Lord just walked me into some pretty valuable insight. Work doesn't have to be long, boring, or unfulfilling. I am loving what I am doing and I thank God that he is leading me through the journey of understanding how I need to operate in society and how I need to operate in the Kingdom. We live in this messed up world and we can't help that. In order to be successful in something (business, ministry, career, marriage, home, parenting etc. . .) we have to be able to transition out of the mindsets that keep us stuck in repetitive behavior. Your decisions mean everything. Your decisions shape your tomorrow. Your current mindset and decision making patterns are set up to work against us, we have to learn how to work the system. We have to figure out what makes this system work against us, then overcome those mental blocks that are keeping us fixed on stuck.
Don't be Fixed on Stuck . . .
If this is your first time reading this blog, I know, this doesn't make a lot of sense. I write a lot about Christian living, mindsets, and spiritual awakening stuff. I am really noticing that the Lord is allowing his people to wake up and see how this world was designed to keep us misinformed, misdirected, and simply out of the loop. I think that we are making a shift into new understanding of what this life is really supposed to be. I am very excited about it in fact that I started a podcast called, "All The Things You Need To Know About the End of the World."
Sometimes, people are so stuck in their old ways that they can't find a way to get un-stuck. It makes them sad. They don't always know how to express that sadness so they stay hurt. And we know that hurt people, hurt people. Does this not explain the condition of the world? Don't get stuck you guys. Better yet, if you are stuck, don't stay stuck. Remind yourself that those people who seem like your enemies, aren't really your enemies . . . they just stuck people. . .
Now, I know that I need a way to get this information out to everyone and I know how I am going to do that now. I see the path, but I can't tell you yet. You just have to wait and see . . .
The Lord just walked me into some pretty valuable insight. Work doesn't have to be long, boring, or unfulfilling. I am loving what I am doing and I thank God that he is leading me through the journey of understanding how I need to operate in society and how I need to operate in the Kingdom. We live in this messed up world and we can't help that. In order to be successful in something (business, ministry, career, marriage, home, parenting etc. . .) we have to be able to transition out of the mindsets that keep us stuck in repetitive behavior. Your decisions mean everything. Your decisions shape your tomorrow. Your current mindset and decision making patterns are set up to work against us, we have to learn how to work the system. We have to figure out what makes this system work against us, then overcome those mental blocks that are keeping us fixed on stuck.
Don't be Fixed on Stuck . . .
If this is your first time reading this blog, I know, this doesn't make a lot of sense. I write a lot about Christian living, mindsets, and spiritual awakening stuff. I am really noticing that the Lord is allowing his people to wake up and see how this world was designed to keep us misinformed, misdirected, and simply out of the loop. I think that we are making a shift into new understanding of what this life is really supposed to be. I am very excited about it in fact that I started a podcast called, "All The Things You Need To Know About the End of the World."
https://anchor.fm/allthethings-endoftheworld
Sometimes, people are so stuck in their old ways that they can't find a way to get un-stuck. It makes them sad. They don't always know how to express that sadness so they stay hurt. And we know that hurt people, hurt people. Does this not explain the condition of the world? Don't get stuck you guys. Better yet, if you are stuck, don't stay stuck. Remind yourself that those people who seem like your enemies, aren't really your enemies . . . they just stuck people. . .
Now, I know that I need a way to get this information out to everyone and I know how I am going to do that now. I see the path, but I can't tell you yet. You just have to wait and see . . .
Tuesday, April 28, 2020
Day 30- leaving headquarters
Hey hey,
I thank God for another beautiful day. On this coast we are looking at a forecast of 60 to 70 degree weather all week! This is a beautiful thing for us because we can at least go into our yards and do some yard work. I am starting a garden. It's coming out to be okay. But what I learned through this life is that you have to start something in order to learn. This is why I'm going to keep trying at this so that I can keep learning. Believe me, the growth is happening.
The reward of the learning doesn't happen overnight, no, you have to venture out of your comfort zone and into another realm of possibilities. You have to leave the nest to learn how to fly. You have to leave headquarters to learn how the battle is really won. It does take work and effort. It does take some type of grind to get to where you need to be. It takes something that you have to leave behind in order to receive the new thing.
I can go on and on on this topic but for today, I am actually leaving my house to go food shopping. Isn't God great that he can teach us the value of our home just by changing up our routines a little. So, let us leave behind the worry, fear, and anxiety to embrace the new thing that the Lord wants us to have. Let us grab on to hope, love, and faith. God is always working for us, even if we can't see it. Let us leave the headquarters of our comfort so that we can grow into the beautiful souls he designed us to be. We are his garden.
until next time
I thank God for another beautiful day. On this coast we are looking at a forecast of 60 to 70 degree weather all week! This is a beautiful thing for us because we can at least go into our yards and do some yard work. I am starting a garden. It's coming out to be okay. But what I learned through this life is that you have to start something in order to learn. This is why I'm going to keep trying at this so that I can keep learning. Believe me, the growth is happening.
The reward of the learning doesn't happen overnight, no, you have to venture out of your comfort zone and into another realm of possibilities. You have to leave the nest to learn how to fly. You have to leave headquarters to learn how the battle is really won. It does take work and effort. It does take some type of grind to get to where you need to be. It takes something that you have to leave behind in order to receive the new thing.
I can go on and on on this topic but for today, I am actually leaving my house to go food shopping. Isn't God great that he can teach us the value of our home just by changing up our routines a little. So, let us leave behind the worry, fear, and anxiety to embrace the new thing that the Lord wants us to have. Let us grab on to hope, love, and faith. God is always working for us, even if we can't see it. Let us leave the headquarters of our comfort so that we can grow into the beautiful souls he designed us to be. We are his garden.
until next time
Monday, April 27, 2020
Day What!! Day 29 #next90days - #BLESSED
This is the year 2020 the year of vision and the decade of completion . . .
Now, here goes the thing . . . is it coincidence that 20/20 is already associate with eyesight or did God plan it that way? Why can some people see the plan while others are running scared. I just am so thankful this morning for insight, eyesight, dreams, and vision. Here we go 2020 . . this will be the greatest shift in life for so many people and I speak break through over those people who are stuck. I speak salvation and direction. I speak love and joy and hope!! I SPEAK PEACE!! Because this is what the Lord has for us. He has peace for us, just waiting for us to pick it up in this 20/20. He has understanding and wisdom for us waiting in this 20/20.
Listen . . .
In order to be in charge of your life you have to take hold of territory.
This means that we can no longer sit in a job that is ruled by rulers who don't want to see us prosper.
This means that we need to have a plan.
This doesn't mean that everyone can leave their jobs at once.
What it does mean is for us to start our businesses.
What is does mean is for us to become self sufficient.
What it does mean is for us to have courage.
What it does mean is for us to have faith that things will work out.
What is does mean is for us to get into those high positions and start changing the way people think.
What it does mean is to accept the vision.
What it does mean is to be strong and courageous, fighting the good fight, going into territory and taking what is already promised to you. Yes, you will have to fight for it. Yes, you will have to pray through it. Yes, it will be hard to gain the skills necessary to get to the position that you were always meant to be at. You are the head and not the tail. You are above and not beneath. You are blessed when you go in and you are blessed when you come out of this season. BLESSED!!!
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
DO IT DO IT DO IT
BLESSED!!!!
We are on our way to be completed.
Now, here goes the thing . . . is it coincidence that 20/20 is already associate with eyesight or did God plan it that way? Why can some people see the plan while others are running scared. I just am so thankful this morning for insight, eyesight, dreams, and vision. Here we go 2020 . . this will be the greatest shift in life for so many people and I speak break through over those people who are stuck. I speak salvation and direction. I speak love and joy and hope!! I SPEAK PEACE!! Because this is what the Lord has for us. He has peace for us, just waiting for us to pick it up in this 20/20. He has understanding and wisdom for us waiting in this 20/20.
Listen . . .
In order to be in charge of your life you have to take hold of territory.
This means that we can no longer sit in a job that is ruled by rulers who don't want to see us prosper.
This means that we need to have a plan.
This doesn't mean that everyone can leave their jobs at once.
What it does mean is for us to start our businesses.
What is does mean is for us to become self sufficient.
What it does mean is for us to have courage.
What it does mean is for us to have faith that things will work out.
What is does mean is for us to get into those high positions and start changing the way people think.
What it does mean is to accept the vision.
What it does mean is to be strong and courageous, fighting the good fight, going into territory and taking what is already promised to you. Yes, you will have to fight for it. Yes, you will have to pray through it. Yes, it will be hard to gain the skills necessary to get to the position that you were always meant to be at. You are the head and not the tail. You are above and not beneath. You are blessed when you go in and you are blessed when you come out of this season. BLESSED!!!
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
BLESSED
DO IT DO IT DO IT
BLESSED!!!!
We are on our way to be completed.
Sunday, April 26, 2020
day 28 #Next90 Insta Queen
Here goes the thing, it is Sunday and I am posting two times. . . Why because I got distracted and didn't finish writing my post so I never published it yesterday. Why did I get distracted you ask? Because I was too busy trying to be Instagram queen on my pages!! LOL . . . but I was having fun, but was feeling guilty for having fun and now I think that that post 27 was absolutely appropriate for me. I need to learn how to fall, know that I will fall, and know that I can get back up because the Lord is here to help me and guide me.
We are at the point in time in history to share the word of God with Power and with might and without apologies. If the enemy can do it, then God's Kingdom can do it better!!
It is time to work this thing out. . .
Lord I pray that Christian Businesses take off
I pray that Christian ministry and influence take over the airways
Lord I pray that we deny and take away the enemies power to persuade
Lord I pray that the Power of God changes minds, perspectives, and vision!!
Lord thank you for the VISION
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for your courage that you send for us to get back up
Thank you for the teaching and the correcting
Thank you for the friendship
Thank you for the direction
Lord I pray that we start using our voices, our talents, and our purpose the way that you have designed us to use them
Lord increase your camp
and decrease the enemies territory
Lord increase our ability to see
and decrease the enemies ability to attack
Lord increase our armor
and decrease the enemy's advantage
Lord increase or unity
and divide the enemies kingdom
Lord increase our help
and decrease the enemy's vision
Lord increase our power
and decrease the enemy's illusions
Wake us up
Wake us up
Wake us up
It is time
to put on the full armor
It is time to get ready for the spiritual revolution in our souls.
We are at the point in time in history to share the word of God with Power and with might and without apologies. If the enemy can do it, then God's Kingdom can do it better!!
It is time to work this thing out. . .
Lord I pray that Christian Businesses take off
I pray that Christian ministry and influence take over the airways
Lord I pray that we deny and take away the enemies power to persuade
Lord I pray that the Power of God changes minds, perspectives, and vision!!
Lord thank you for the VISION
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for your courage that you send for us to get back up
Thank you for the teaching and the correcting
Thank you for the friendship
Thank you for the direction
Lord I pray that we start using our voices, our talents, and our purpose the way that you have designed us to use them
Lord increase your camp
and decrease the enemies territory
Lord increase our ability to see
and decrease the enemies ability to attack
Lord increase our armor
and decrease the enemy's advantage
Lord increase or unity
and divide the enemies kingdom
Lord increase our help
and decrease the enemy's vision
Lord increase our power
and decrease the enemy's illusions
Wake us up
Wake us up
Wake us up
It is time
to put on the full armor
It is time to get ready for the spiritual revolution in our souls.
Day 27 #90daychallenge- Suck it Chloe!
LOL, I was watching Rachelle on Facebook about 30 minutes after her morning show on Friday and she said the funniest thing. I actually heard her say it before but this time she had me rolling. . .
It was basically like this:
"You don't tell a one year old who is trying to learn how to walk to just give up. Yeah, they're going to fall repeatedly, yeah there going to stumble but your not going to yell at them an tell them that they're never going to make it happen. You're not going to be like, SUCK IT CHLOE!!"
This is definitely paraphrased but you get the point. . . .
I am looking at my current situation and I am understanding that things are not happening for me on social media like I want them to. I am just not getting it and I do tell myself sometimes that I suck, but this is limited thinking. This is not the way God thinks of me and it is not the way I should think of myself. I just continue to have faith that one day, one day this thing will all come together for me.
I am on year 4 and I pray that God gives me strength to keep going. Lord make a way. I just want to let people know how much God loves them.
Father, I pray in the name of Jesus
that all things work out for our favor
for those who are in business
For those who want to have families
For those who's families are hurting
For those who have lost someone
For those who are looking for financial break through
Help is on the way
For those who think life is unfair
For those who have been hurt
For those who are running away
For those who are struggling to see your love
Help is on the way
For those who are feeling lonely
For those who are feeling fear
For those who are feeling betrayed
For those who are feeling overwhelmed
Help is on the way
Give praise to the Lord
all ye lands
and serve our Lord with gladness
He is the one who heals
and he is the one who answers prayers
And he is the one who delivers
And he is the one who brings us our help
He is on the way
It was basically like this:
"You don't tell a one year old who is trying to learn how to walk to just give up. Yeah, they're going to fall repeatedly, yeah there going to stumble but your not going to yell at them an tell them that they're never going to make it happen. You're not going to be like, SUCK IT CHLOE!!"
This is definitely paraphrased but you get the point. . . .
I am looking at my current situation and I am understanding that things are not happening for me on social media like I want them to. I am just not getting it and I do tell myself sometimes that I suck, but this is limited thinking. This is not the way God thinks of me and it is not the way I should think of myself. I just continue to have faith that one day, one day this thing will all come together for me.
I am on year 4 and I pray that God gives me strength to keep going. Lord make a way. I just want to let people know how much God loves them.
Father, I pray in the name of Jesus
that all things work out for our favor
for those who are in business
For those who want to have families
For those who's families are hurting
For those who have lost someone
For those who are looking for financial break through
Help is on the way
For those who think life is unfair
For those who have been hurt
For those who are running away
For those who are struggling to see your love
Help is on the way
For those who are feeling lonely
For those who are feeling fear
For those who are feeling betrayed
For those who are feeling overwhelmed
Help is on the way
Give praise to the Lord
all ye lands
and serve our Lord with gladness
He is the one who heals
and he is the one who answers prayers
And he is the one who delivers
And he is the one who brings us our help
He is on the way
Friday, April 24, 2020
day 26- #90daychallenge-Thank you for your way
I want to think that I am doing the right thing but I know that I am not. Not all of the time. Sometimes we have to pause and be okay with not being perfect. We are not perfect. We have to depend on the Lord for our strength and our direction. Sometimes that is going to have to be a day by day thing or a moment by moment thing. We have to deny ourselves and walk with Jesus everyday.
I can write these things and say these things, but if I don't put them into action, then it is empty. I could try to live to a standard of holiness, but the truth is, this culture does not give a clear picture of what true holiness is. People hurt people because they are hurting. The powers of darkness have managed to fool the world. I don't want to be a fool anymore and so I pray to God that he keeps me awake. Keep me awake dear Lord so that I can be with you forever. Prepare a place for me dear Lord so that I can feel the redemption of your saving grace. How can you hear us if the enemy has blocked all channels of us getting through to unbelievers? But the Lord knows a way. But the Lord has a way.
Thank you Lord for your way . . .
Queens wake up
it is time to speak
the harvest is plentiful
on prosperity week
it is time to rumble with the dirt
and draw the serpent to his knees
and the orders
of order
and the emptiness of this world
will be filled
and it will be healed
for it is sealed
Wake up
wake up
I can write these things and say these things, but if I don't put them into action, then it is empty. I could try to live to a standard of holiness, but the truth is, this culture does not give a clear picture of what true holiness is. People hurt people because they are hurting. The powers of darkness have managed to fool the world. I don't want to be a fool anymore and so I pray to God that he keeps me awake. Keep me awake dear Lord so that I can be with you forever. Prepare a place for me dear Lord so that I can feel the redemption of your saving grace. How can you hear us if the enemy has blocked all channels of us getting through to unbelievers? But the Lord knows a way. But the Lord has a way.
Thank you Lord for your way . . .
Queens wake up
it is time to speak
the harvest is plentiful
on prosperity week
it is time to rumble with the dirt
and draw the serpent to his knees
and the orders
of order
and the emptiness of this world
will be filled
and it will be healed
for it is sealed
Wake up
wake up
Thursday, April 23, 2020
day 25- #next90challenge- Imagine me
I am surprisingly not too upset about the 600 dollars missing from my checking account. I don't often check my accounts considering that I don't go anywhere. I don't really buy anything and I don't have an income for any money to really go into an account. So only thing I live on for my personal survival is the check I get from school and the support I get from my hubby. I am slowly not attached to the the money. I am just learning to totally depend on my father in heaven for all provision. This is a process. This is a slow process because I am not totally there yet.
"Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally
"Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally
finally I can, imagine me . . ."
I think this is the lyric from Kirk Franklin's song "Imagine Me." Let me look it up . . .hold the line for a sec. . .
Okay I found it:
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally, finally I can
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can
Imagine me
Sometimes it is hard to imagine a better life for yourself when everything around you is falling apart. But I know that God loves me and I know that he loves you. I know that he has compassion for the ones who are suffering, hurting, and looking for answers to this life. God is Good all the time, and all the time God is Good. Thank you Kirk Franklin for being a light in this world. Thank you for being obedient to the call and thank you for being the person you are to write such sentimental words. We need this. Thank you for being the vessel to carry God's love message. Thank you Lord for your plan and your purpose and your inspiration for the world. You know what you are doing. We trust you totally.
Lord I trust that everything is Okay with the money. I pray that everything turns out okay with this Corona virus. I pray that people are healed and moved into your direction. I pray that people learn to trust your plan. I imagine a happy world who serves the most high God, not by force or coercion, but by the evidence of truth.
Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me 'cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy 'cause
I imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me 'cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy 'cause
I imagine me
Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
'Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again
'Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally, finally I can
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can
Imagine me
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can
Imagine me
Being strong
And not letting people break me down
You won't get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid?
Because of your love, fear's gone away
Can you imagine me?
And not letting people break me down
You won't get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid?
Because of your love, fear's gone away
Can you imagine me?
Wednesday, April 22, 2020
day 24- #90challenge -Action time
The benefit of doing comes from the experience of failing. Failing brings key understanding, wisdom, and knowledge. Blessed are those who love knowledge and blessed are those who seek understanding.
In all my ways and in all my effort I want to acknowledge the Lord. I want to do his will and I live to please him. I however don't always follow directions, or I procrastinate in the action portion of the assignment. Procrastination is a delay and therefore a delay in the blessing. I want to learn what I have to learn in this life so that I am not delayed the promise of the Lord. So MOVE are the words that I say to myself today. MOVE is what I want to convey to you today. Do it!! Do it!! Do it!!
I am going to have faith in the Lord that my action is a benefit to others.
Today I do have a task list. There are somethings that I really want to finish today. I am working on a paper so I know that is going to take up much of my energy. Matter of fact, I think this is going to me my focus for today. Pick something to focus on, do it. Make sure you take your mental breaks in between.
You got this!
In all my ways and in all my effort I want to acknowledge the Lord. I want to do his will and I live to please him. I however don't always follow directions, or I procrastinate in the action portion of the assignment. Procrastination is a delay and therefore a delay in the blessing. I want to learn what I have to learn in this life so that I am not delayed the promise of the Lord. So MOVE are the words that I say to myself today. MOVE is what I want to convey to you today. Do it!! Do it!! Do it!!
I am going to have faith in the Lord that my action is a benefit to others.
Today I do have a task list. There are somethings that I really want to finish today. I am working on a paper so I know that is going to take up much of my energy. Matter of fact, I think this is going to me my focus for today. Pick something to focus on, do it. Make sure you take your mental breaks in between.
You got this!
Tuesday, April 21, 2020
day 23- Everything is Figureoutable
Everyday is every day isn't it. Every day is a huge commitment.
I have made a commitment to live this life. I have made the commitment to write on this blog everyday, I don't know what it means yet and I don't know how it is going to benefit me. What I do know is that I am growing. We are always growing even if we can't see it. Growth happens in the dark.
I am currently reading "Everything is Figureoutable" by Marie Forleo. It is very good so far and I do believe that I am getting a lot out of it. I do not read it everyday because if I did I would have been finished it by now. Maybe one day I will give you some key takeaways. But I enjoy reading, taking my time, indulging in the words of a good story. This is why I take my time reading a book, though I do have a goal of finishing this book this month. . .
Take the time during this time of quarantine to do something that brings you show. I thank God for this opportunity. In trouble there is always opportunity. . . be patient, after winter must come spring. . and remember everything is figureoutable because God already figured it out.
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Thank you Lord for allowing us this time in the line to stop and think
to breath and to feel
and to appreciate
to appreciate love
to appreciate peace
to appreciate all of the things
that will set us free
we appreciate you
we appreciate we
we appreciate all the things
that give us victory
we care about you
you care about true
thank you for all of the things
that will get us through
I have made a commitment to live this life. I have made the commitment to write on this blog everyday, I don't know what it means yet and I don't know how it is going to benefit me. What I do know is that I am growing. We are always growing even if we can't see it. Growth happens in the dark.
I am currently reading "Everything is Figureoutable" by Marie Forleo. It is very good so far and I do believe that I am getting a lot out of it. I do not read it everyday because if I did I would have been finished it by now. Maybe one day I will give you some key takeaways. But I enjoy reading, taking my time, indulging in the words of a good story. This is why I take my time reading a book, though I do have a goal of finishing this book this month. . .
Take the time during this time of quarantine to do something that brings you show. I thank God for this opportunity. In trouble there is always opportunity. . . be patient, after winter must come spring. . and remember everything is figureoutable because God already figured it out.
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Thank you Lord for allowing us this time in the line to stop and think
to breath and to feel
and to appreciate
to appreciate love
to appreciate peace
to appreciate all of the things
that will set us free
we appreciate you
we appreciate we
we appreciate all the things
that give us victory
we care about you
you care about true
thank you for all of the things
that will get us through
Monday, April 20, 2020
day 22- next 90- Judas Iscariot
Today I wake up to a cold morning in April. I don't know why it is so cold and I am choosing to skip my walk. But I am going to tell God thank you for waking me up. I want to tell him thank you for showing me things.
Today I am on a search for the background life of Judas Iscariot. Where did he come from and what was his life like before he became a disciple? Why did Jesus choose him if he knew that he was going to betray Jesus?
I don't want to betray Jesus. But who is the clay to say to the potter, "Why have you made me thus?"
I am writing because I am looking for connections and I want to make sense of my world. I write everyday so that someone can take my words and download them into their soul. Words mean something. Thoughts mean something. Keep thinking, dreaming, and praying for our future. I believe that the Lord is giving us visions for the future so that we can live and strive to create a better world.
Why do some of us choose to believe the word of God while others choose to turn from it? Why are some people faithful, while others are doubtful? Why are some people willing to work hard, while others are schemers? Why do we do the things that we do? Why do most of us think like Judas Iscariot?
Today I am on a search for the background life of Judas Iscariot. Where did he come from and what was his life like before he became a disciple? Why did Jesus choose him if he knew that he was going to betray Jesus?
I don't want to betray Jesus. But who is the clay to say to the potter, "Why have you made me thus?"
I am writing because I am looking for connections and I want to make sense of my world. I write everyday so that someone can take my words and download them into their soul. Words mean something. Thoughts mean something. Keep thinking, dreaming, and praying for our future. I believe that the Lord is giving us visions for the future so that we can live and strive to create a better world.
Why do some of us choose to believe the word of God while others choose to turn from it? Why are some people faithful, while others are doubtful? Why are some people willing to work hard, while others are schemers? Why do we do the things that we do? Why do most of us think like Judas Iscariot?
Sunday, April 19, 2020
day 21- That should've been something.
The way I get through things is that I push through them, I write through them, I pray through them.
Everybody has a coping mechanism to deal with stress. It is the way that the body works. It is the way that the mind works. Picking a coping tool that is going to be beneficial to you mental health and over all well being is the better choice. Spending time with the people you love is the better choice than taking that drink. Going for a walk is a better choice than smoking that weed. Reading that book is a better choice than spending a day on Netflix. And eating that salad is a better choice than eating that pack of cookies.
I almost ate a whole pack of cookies yesterday. I was still drinking my warm lemon water with ginger and garlic which made those cookies taste like sugar lemon deliciousness. But, perhaps that wasn't the best choice. It wasn't he best choice to watch Mrs. Maisel do her comedy in Vegas because I started to dream about the meaning of life. I found myself saying:
"CHERRY- HOUSE - KIDS - HUSBAND- That should've been something."
Also, in my dream, I missed the bus. I was at the high school, I was a student, and it was the end of the day. I actually stayed after. Instead of walking down the hill to the elementary school where the bus picked up all the kids. I waited in the office until after 3 o'clock, a mistake. As I finally came to my senses of where I was supposed to be, I ran down to the horse shoe parking lot to see that all the buses exiting the parking lot. I missed my ride. I wasn't thinking.
I don't want anyone to miss the bus on the lessons we are supposed to learn from this life. This is why I write, so that someone can get something out of my life. I need someone to learn from my mistakes even if I couldn't learn from them myself. I encourage you to start writing also. You will see more things and learn more things about who you are. Write-reflect- learn- so that we don't keep making the same mistakes.
Everybody has a coping mechanism to deal with stress. It is the way that the body works. It is the way that the mind works. Picking a coping tool that is going to be beneficial to you mental health and over all well being is the better choice. Spending time with the people you love is the better choice than taking that drink. Going for a walk is a better choice than smoking that weed. Reading that book is a better choice than spending a day on Netflix. And eating that salad is a better choice than eating that pack of cookies.
I almost ate a whole pack of cookies yesterday. I was still drinking my warm lemon water with ginger and garlic which made those cookies taste like sugar lemon deliciousness. But, perhaps that wasn't the best choice. It wasn't he best choice to watch Mrs. Maisel do her comedy in Vegas because I started to dream about the meaning of life. I found myself saying:
"CHERRY- HOUSE - KIDS - HUSBAND- That should've been something."
Also, in my dream, I missed the bus. I was at the high school, I was a student, and it was the end of the day. I actually stayed after. Instead of walking down the hill to the elementary school where the bus picked up all the kids. I waited in the office until after 3 o'clock, a mistake. As I finally came to my senses of where I was supposed to be, I ran down to the horse shoe parking lot to see that all the buses exiting the parking lot. I missed my ride. I wasn't thinking.
I don't want anyone to miss the bus on the lessons we are supposed to learn from this life. This is why I write, so that someone can get something out of my life. I need someone to learn from my mistakes even if I couldn't learn from them myself. I encourage you to start writing also. You will see more things and learn more things about who you are. Write-reflect- learn- so that we don't keep making the same mistakes.
Saturday, April 18, 2020
day 20 -last 90- What I know for sure
I have good news about life but I don't know how to share it. I don't know the ends and outs about marketing this message. We are at a time in history where we are shut down because of a virus. I have to tell you that I am starting to feel the limitations to my character.
I don't know why I stopped writing on my blog. Maybe it was getting to be too much for me. Maybe I hadn't reached the goals that I wanted to reach with it. I definitely don't have the readership. I want to help people but I think that I am offering my unsolicited advice to people who don't care what I think. They don't care because they have there own cares, their own worries, their own issues that keep them too busy to slow down and hear any good news about this whole living.
I come to realize that I need to keep writing because the message is for me as well.
Slow down.
Slow down and learn the meaning of life. . .
I feel like I want to start the next section like Oprah always ends her magazine, there are things I know for sure.
What I know for sure is that this life is not the only life to live but we shouldn't let it go to waste. Things change, circumstances change, routines change, and inconveniences happen; it is our job to role with the punches. It is our job to keep going because someone who is younger and looking at us need to see that we can adapt, that we can be strong and get through it. Someone who looks up to us wants us to be strong in the face of adversity so that they can create a story of triumph in their lives.
What I know for sure is that we need to show up for the people who we love and for the people who love us. We are all influencers. We all matter. It doesn't matter who sees our strength or perceives our presence on the internet. We need to be good people all of the time.
What I know for sure is that God didn't design his Kingdom for every individual to be the leader over the whole body. No, he designed his Kingdom with citizens who are unique, with different talents and different strengths. People are uniquely designed to be productive within a specific territory. So, I have to start at home first. My home is my territory. Then we grow from where we are planted.
What I know for sure is that Jesus loves me and he will never leave me nor forsake me. I will hold on to that promise forever and ever.
Somethings I don't know for sure but that is okay. I find joy in the promise of everlasting life. This is what I teach my children. The joy of the Lord is my strength
I don't have a plan of action for the Corona Virus because this has never been a thing that has happened to many of us before. I don't know what to expect from this quarantine and I find myself at a loss. I actually just finished crying after watching Britney Runs a Marathon on Amazon Prime because I was supposed to be better than getting into my PJ's at 5 o"clock in the evening. I was supposed to be stronger than eating a half a pack of delicious Shop Rite sugar cookies. I was supposed to be smarter than ignoring my kids for half the day because I was too lazy to plan quality time with them. I let them be on Netflix all day, or video games, or what ever else they found to occupy their time. But friends, I am a miser like everyone else. Me being a believer in Christ doesn't make me better, wiser, or unaffected by the events of this present time. I am just making it through with Jesus and asking him to navigate me through it. Thank you father for direction.
What I know for sure is that the Lord is with us and he works everything out for the good.
I don't know why I stopped writing on my blog. Maybe it was getting to be too much for me. Maybe I hadn't reached the goals that I wanted to reach with it. I definitely don't have the readership. I want to help people but I think that I am offering my unsolicited advice to people who don't care what I think. They don't care because they have there own cares, their own worries, their own issues that keep them too busy to slow down and hear any good news about this whole living.
I come to realize that I need to keep writing because the message is for me as well.
Slow down.
Slow down and learn the meaning of life. . .
I feel like I want to start the next section like Oprah always ends her magazine, there are things I know for sure.
What I know for sure is that this life is not the only life to live but we shouldn't let it go to waste. Things change, circumstances change, routines change, and inconveniences happen; it is our job to role with the punches. It is our job to keep going because someone who is younger and looking at us need to see that we can adapt, that we can be strong and get through it. Someone who looks up to us wants us to be strong in the face of adversity so that they can create a story of triumph in their lives.
What I know for sure is that we need to show up for the people who we love and for the people who love us. We are all influencers. We all matter. It doesn't matter who sees our strength or perceives our presence on the internet. We need to be good people all of the time.
What I know for sure is that God didn't design his Kingdom for every individual to be the leader over the whole body. No, he designed his Kingdom with citizens who are unique, with different talents and different strengths. People are uniquely designed to be productive within a specific territory. So, I have to start at home first. My home is my territory. Then we grow from where we are planted.
What I know for sure is that Jesus loves me and he will never leave me nor forsake me. I will hold on to that promise forever and ever.
Somethings I don't know for sure but that is okay. I find joy in the promise of everlasting life. This is what I teach my children. The joy of the Lord is my strength
I don't have a plan of action for the Corona Virus because this has never been a thing that has happened to many of us before. I don't know what to expect from this quarantine and I find myself at a loss. I actually just finished crying after watching Britney Runs a Marathon on Amazon Prime because I was supposed to be better than getting into my PJ's at 5 o"clock in the evening. I was supposed to be stronger than eating a half a pack of delicious Shop Rite sugar cookies. I was supposed to be smarter than ignoring my kids for half the day because I was too lazy to plan quality time with them. I let them be on Netflix all day, or video games, or what ever else they found to occupy their time. But friends, I am a miser like everyone else. Me being a believer in Christ doesn't make me better, wiser, or unaffected by the events of this present time. I am just making it through with Jesus and asking him to navigate me through it. Thank you father for direction.
What I know for sure is that the Lord is with us and he works everything out for the good.
Friday, April 17, 2020
day 19-90 days- Aimee McPherson
What are my dreams?
What are my aspirations?
Why do I want to keep on living?
These are some of the big questions of life. These are the big questions that our lives get so busy sometimes that we don't stop to think about them. I mean really think about them. I am on a journey to answer these big questions of life:
What is the meaning of it all?
Why am I here on this earth?
I think of a quote by a woman who lived famously in the 1920's. She became widowed, left her second husband on a whim to start a church in California. She had two children with her as she built a world renowned building, mega church, that attracted the young and the old to hear the message of Jesus Christ. She said the following:
What are my aspirations?
Why do I want to keep on living?
These are some of the big questions of life. These are the big questions that our lives get so busy sometimes that we don't stop to think about them. I mean really think about them. I am on a journey to answer these big questions of life:
What is the meaning of it all?
Why am I here on this earth?
I think of a quote by a woman who lived famously in the 1920's. She became widowed, left her second husband on a whim to start a church in California. She had two children with her as she built a world renowned building, mega church, that attracted the young and the old to hear the message of Jesus Christ. She said the following:
"What is my task? To get the gospel around the world in the shortest possible time to every man and woman and boy and girl! "
"We are all making a crown for Jesus out of these daily lives of ours, either a crown of golden, divine love, studded with gems of sacrifice and adoration, or a thorny crown, filled with the cruel briars of unbelief, or selfishness, and sin."
"What is my task? First of all, my task is to be pleasing to Christ. To be empty of self and be filled with himself. To be filled with the Holy Spirit; to be led by the Holy Spirit."
Aimee Semple McPherson (1890–1944)
This too is my task. This is why I do what I do. I know that God is preparing me for something greater.
Check out more on Sister Aimee and the Four Square Gospel below:
Thursday, April 16, 2020
day 18- the Next 90 days
Working on my dissertation today. Looking up articles and trying not to think too much about the other projects that I want to accomplish. . .
We are running out of time, but I had a very important thought to share.
This is the meaning of life; to give meaning to life. To give meaning to all of the experiences, all of the heart aches, all of the good times, the joy and the pain. The meaning of life is to live it to the best of your ability; learning the whole time, growing through it. Finding our way to the truth of the light. Isn't this how we made it here in the first place, we made it to the light?
I want to put that out there. We are growing every day and when we connect with our teacher we have a better chance of getting a passing grade.
This is day 18 of the next 90. Thanks Dave for an awesome lesson on habits. I am stringing my habits on to this habit of writing everyday.
If you are interested in joining the next 90 days challenge you have to go to https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live
I am sure they will continue this for next year and the year after that!
Speak life!!
We are running out of time, but I had a very important thought to share.
We are living the experience to truth. . .
This is the meaning of life; to give meaning to life. To give meaning to all of the experiences, all of the heart aches, all of the good times, the joy and the pain. The meaning of life is to live it to the best of your ability; learning the whole time, growing through it. Finding our way to the truth of the light. Isn't this how we made it here in the first place, we made it to the light?
I want to put that out there. We are growing every day and when we connect with our teacher we have a better chance of getting a passing grade.
This is day 18 of the next 90. Thanks Dave for an awesome lesson on habits. I am stringing my habits on to this habit of writing everyday.
If you are interested in joining the next 90 days challenge you have to go to https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live
I am sure they will continue this for next year and the year after that!
Speak life!!
Wednesday, April 15, 2020
DAY 17- Next 90 days
I am so off on the days . . . this is actually day 17 for me on the next 90 day challenge . . . Day IDK on the quarantine. CRAZY TIMES we are living in . . . What are you doing during this time of staying home?
This is a challenge that is set up by Rachelle and Dave Hollis at Hollis Company. I actually just went to the site to find out the correct spelling of the name and found that they are having a LIVE virtual conference online. I'm excited about that since it will be happening soon, May 2nd. We had to cancel all of our vacation plans and things with the kids. I am thinking that it is something that we can do together with the kids, so I am going to buy a ticket today.
I am off of my schedule but I am learning that I have too many priorities. With too many priorities, nothing really get's done. I am the kind of person though, who doesn't need to see a lot of progress to motivate myself to keep going. If you were to search for my Chinese bamboo tree post you would know what I mean . . .
https://artteacher4purpose.blogspot.com/2018/04/wisdom-for-wednesday-chinese-bamboo-tree.html
I am going to keep going no matter what. I know that something is happening underneath all of the soil. I believe that I am planting seeds somewhere. Growth always happens first where you can see it. So, I will try to form this habit of writing everyday and if it is any good, maybe I will share it will somebody!
Love you to life!
For more information on the the conference click link below.
https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live
For more information about who I am, click the link below:
artteacher4purpose.com
This is a challenge that is set up by Rachelle and Dave Hollis at Hollis Company. I actually just went to the site to find out the correct spelling of the name and found that they are having a LIVE virtual conference online. I'm excited about that since it will be happening soon, May 2nd. We had to cancel all of our vacation plans and things with the kids. I am thinking that it is something that we can do together with the kids, so I am going to buy a ticket today.
I am off of my schedule but I am learning that I have too many priorities. With too many priorities, nothing really get's done. I am the kind of person though, who doesn't need to see a lot of progress to motivate myself to keep going. If you were to search for my Chinese bamboo tree post you would know what I mean . . .
https://artteacher4purpose.blogspot.com/2018/04/wisdom-for-wednesday-chinese-bamboo-tree.html
I am going to keep going no matter what. I know that something is happening underneath all of the soil. I believe that I am planting seeds somewhere. Growth always happens first where you can see it. So, I will try to form this habit of writing everyday and if it is any good, maybe I will share it will somebody!
Love you to life!
For more information on the the conference click link below.
https://thehollisco.com/pages/rise-live
For more information about who I am, click the link below:
artteacher4purpose.com
Tuesday, April 14, 2020
Day 15 of the Next 90 days
How do you remember how to do things? By doing them everyday.
I just had another major mind shift into the correct way to live my life. I started this 90 day challenge with the intent on changing some habits. I am so happy to know that there is a way to work this thing out so that I can find out exactly what those bad habits are. I was not able to write on this blog every day. I was looking for a way out. I was looking for an easy way. When we have the mindset to do it the easy way, that is a mindset of a cheater. The only one that we are cheating when we cheat, is ourselves. Why? Because we have failed to give ourselves the opportunity to learn.
I need to write everyday. Point blank end of story. This is what a writer does . . .
Today I make the commitment to write everyday. You may not see it but I'm going to be writing everyday. Some other things that I am going to commit to are:
-Do my school work every day
-Work towards my dissertation ever day
-Spend time with my kids everyday
-clean something everyday
-pray everyday
-be thankful everyday
-move my body (exercise) ever day
-relax and enjoy life- every day
-do something that makes me happy everyday
-clean up after myself everyday
What are you going to do every day?
Even if I'm writing to myself . . . thank you God for the message to myself . . .
Seth, you were right. If I want to be a writer I should write every day.
Saturday, April 4, 2020
Teacher Tuesday: Marcus Rogers
OLD POST< NEVER POSTED FROM 2019 as follows:
Time to wake up friends!! Do you know why most Christians will be going to hell? Well, Marcus Rogers is going to break it down for you. . .
I found this great teacher and prophet on YouTube. He speaks the truth. Everything that he is saying is something that the Holy Spirit has spoken to me about these end times. Although I am torn sometimes about the tempo of these last measures, I am also excited that I get the confirmation that this is really happening. I get excited that the Lord will have his way and that I am on the winning side.
Are you on the Winning Side?
I really want you all to chose the winning side. I also want you to become equipped with the living word. You will be tested and you will be tried. This is spiritual warfare. So understand, the closer you get to the Lord, the more you will understand to rest in his presence but the more the enemy's kingdom will come to attack you. Spiritual wickedness does not rest. It is looking for your soft spot and it is coming for you. But the Lord is your refuge and your strength. He will cover you always. . .
Do not be afraid of the terror of the night or the arrows that fly in the day, the Lord is your protection. However, you must really believe, not half way, but really believe it.
Strange things are happening friends. Learn the ways of the Lord. Change the way you are thinking about this world. It will let you down every time because it was not made for you to succeed in. The only way to succeed is by following the way of the Lord. Follow the will of God. Deny what you think you know and claim your new mind.
I just wanted to introduce this young man so that you can subscribe to his channel. He is telling you about the signs of the times and about what is happening in society right now. He is telling you what is about to transpire for Christians in America, especially those who are just "playing Christian."
Friends, it is time to wake up. This is the time to equip yourself with the mind of Christ. We have to stop living for the world and we have to start spreading this message of eternal life. The enemy just wants to trick your mind. He has been doing it for so long that he is starting to usher in a new order for his benefit and your destruction. But do not be weary in your spirit. The Lord will take care of you.
Check out Marcus and what he says about getting our minds right. . . he has other great videos about how we should view our government and the things that are going on with the government shut down.
Great teacher to promote on Teacher Tuesday
Marcus Rogers
Until Next Time
-Tamorra
day 2- Next 90days
Day 2- write everyday
I have written a little bit for the book. I want to be finished this book. I am bored with this book.
The way that I write is in thought blurbs so I have a lot of thought blurbs to piece together for this project. I actually think that I have all the writing complete I just have to edit it and put it together. I don't like editing, it's the most un-fun part of writing that I have to do except when it is fun. This is hard to explain. . . I think it becomes fun to me when things start to come together and the picture becomes what I envisioned it to be. I like it when words start to shine their light on the page . . . yes, that make sense to me. . . Yes, that is what I meant to say!
I wrote my 5,000 quota last week and the 10,000 the week before. I now need to edit those 15,000 plus words and stick them with the other 60,000 that I have already written. Then, yes then we will have a very Strange Master piece . . .
What did I learn today?
It doesn't profit you anything to work all of your days at the attempt to build a legacy, if you don't take the time today to appreciate the legacy you already have.
What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul?
Take is easy Mar, take it easy.
Don't miss out on your life young one
Don't let it pass you by
Don't let it toss you away from your peace
Don't let it watch you cry
Pick your self up today
and dust off your troubled heart
For what you dream
and who you are
are not too far apart
but live today
be set free
to love
to learn
to play
When your life is set to live
you will live another day
I have written a little bit for the book. I want to be finished this book. I am bored with this book.
The way that I write is in thought blurbs so I have a lot of thought blurbs to piece together for this project. I actually think that I have all the writing complete I just have to edit it and put it together. I don't like editing, it's the most un-fun part of writing that I have to do except when it is fun. This is hard to explain. . . I think it becomes fun to me when things start to come together and the picture becomes what I envisioned it to be. I like it when words start to shine their light on the page . . . yes, that make sense to me. . . Yes, that is what I meant to say!
I wrote my 5,000 quota last week and the 10,000 the week before. I now need to edit those 15,000 plus words and stick them with the other 60,000 that I have already written. Then, yes then we will have a very Strange Master piece . . .
What did I learn today?
It doesn't profit you anything to work all of your days at the attempt to build a legacy, if you don't take the time today to appreciate the legacy you already have.
What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul?
Take is easy Mar, take it easy.
Don't miss out on your life young one
Don't let it pass you by
Don't let it toss you away from your peace
Don't let it watch you cry
Pick your self up today
and dust off your troubled heart
For what you dream
and who you are
are not too far apart
but live today
be set free
to love
to learn
to play
When your life is set to live
you will live another day
Friday, April 3, 2020
Day 1: Next 90 days
Day 1
I have decided to take a challenge. I follow Rachelle Hollis on Social and she promotes this idea that her "tribe" adopt 5 practices that would help them change their habits and therefore their lives. The thought for my next practice is not to be a follower, or to feel apart of a big movement but it is fundamentally for the purpose of finishing this book.
"Strange and Peculiar" (a discussion about believing in God)
I am really on day five as a write this but decided to commit to this next 90 Day business. This will be a challenge for me. I'm tired, Aunt Flo just came to town although we are on corona lock down and I want to take a nap. But I am going to fight through it for the sake of fulfilling a promise that I had made to myself, finish the book.
Hence, these next 90 entries will not go through an intense edit, just a brief edit and I will write everyday for the next 90 day to finish this book. All of the content for this book will not be available on this blog but I will work on this book every day in someway for the next 90 days. I even have an idea for the next chapter and it will go something like this:
That is it for now. . .
I have decided to take a challenge. I follow Rachelle Hollis on Social and she promotes this idea that her "tribe" adopt 5 practices that would help them change their habits and therefore their lives. The thought for my next practice is not to be a follower, or to feel apart of a big movement but it is fundamentally for the purpose of finishing this book.
"Strange and Peculiar" (a discussion about believing in God)
I am really on day five as a write this but decided to commit to this next 90 Day business. This will be a challenge for me. I'm tired, Aunt Flo just came to town although we are on corona lock down and I want to take a nap. But I am going to fight through it for the sake of fulfilling a promise that I had made to myself, finish the book.
Hence, these next 90 entries will not go through an intense edit, just a brief edit and I will write everyday for the next 90 day to finish this book. All of the content for this book will not be available on this blog but I will work on this book every day in someway for the next 90 days. I even have an idea for the next chapter and it will go something like this:
I am not on this earth to make an argument for why you should believe in God. I don't think it should be an argument at all. A discussion perhaps. An exchange of ideas out of mutual respect that our perspectives are unique and valuable. I am not here to change anyone, to judge anyone, or to point the finger at wrong decisions that have obviously led us to this place in history. We are all people, we are all human, and we all have made mistakes. I do believe that it is a mistake not to believe in God as the creator, but I am not here to argue with you. I do believe that I was designed with a creative scope that is able to make connections with stories and words that I can then relay to people to explain my position. I am only here to explain my position through my living and so I share will you stories about my journey. I share with you my interpretation of my journey and what it all collectively means to me. . .
That is it for now. . .
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